When I go back to school after summer…

i would just like to say that everyone should stop talking about Yuri’s weight loss. it’s her body and she has every right to look how she wants to look. what’s important is that she feels beautiful, and it looks like she enjoys the way she looks so stop gossiping about it.

Cool.

Dear Young Me,

Sorry, I won’t ever add approximately 60 pounds to you again…

Love always,

4 Years Later

iknowicandothis: I was shocked when I saw the first picture on the left…It’s working!:D

So today my total was 740 calories, 85g carbs, 60g protein, and 15g of fat :) I know realisticly I should be eating more, but I’m honestly not real hungry, and I really really need to lose this weight fast for summer parties that are coming up. I have to be at 125lbs before I feel like I’m good enough to wear a bikini. That’s almost 20lbs I have to lose ASAP!!! yikes!!!

I did the 100 workout today too! I loved it, I was sweating and felt good about it. The only thing I didn’t like were the leg lifts, I may replace them with something else, like barbell curls to work my arms, because I felt the leg lifts did nothing. Although I may just be really bad at them XD

whoo hoo! Weight-loss feels so good :)

Sunshine…

I went a little overboard today. Over 200 calories past my daily budget. Ugh. I guess I was bound to slip-up sometime. It just sucks because I was doing so well before and now…gahh.

It’s been a very long time since I’ve done a text post.  As Sharon said to me last week “You’ve lost your mojo”

I have to agree.

My life has changed in so many ways in the last month.  I was a grad student living with one of my best friends with two more of them living down the street.  I drove across the country and went on adventures that are way out of my comfort zone.  I left California (after dropping off my roommate) and came back to Massachusetts and move into a one bedroom apartment.  (I would like to break for a moment and say don’t you put “an” in front of words that start with a vowel? It would be an octopus, an octo-mom.  But on an one bedroom apartment is wrong?)  Back on topic.

I started working full time at my internship-turned-contractor job doing tax returns that are beyond my knowledge and coming home so exhausted I just lay in my bed and try to find the energy to cook dinner.

I’m lonely.  I’m tired. I’m just trying to figure this new life out.

So yes, I lost some mojo.

But it’s coming back. Soon.  As soon as I get my credit card so I can earn miles so I can be reunited with Ashley.  

When I go back to school after summer…

I want to see their jealousy.

I want to walk in there and see all people staring at me.

I want them to get compliments on my weight loss.

I want to be skinner than her.

I want to make them feel desperate.

I want to support my followers.

I want to wear my old jeans.

I want to feel healthy and fantastic.

I want to be confident.

I wanna have a reason to go shopping every day.

I want it. Now.

Weight Loss from Books!

So, these past few days I was away from home (visiting Kay, attending a wedding, etc). I decided that it would be difficult to count calories and difficult to control what kinds of things I would be eating.

As a result, I stopped counting and just tried to listen to what my body was saying.

I ate a cupcake, I had pizza and fries, and more. I was not as restrictive and it paid off!!!

I think often I give my self a decent amount of set calories (1200-1500), buuuuut I think counting causes me to focus to much on weight loss and not on enjoying the food or just living a healthy lifestyle. As a result, even though I was eating a healthy amount of calories, I still felt restricted by what kinds of foods I could eat and how much of them as well. So, these past few days, if I was hungry I ate, if I wasn’t I didn’t.

I weighed in and voila 148 pounds :)

(and with 2 weeks till the beach, so when I keep this up I could reach 145 or less!)

So, I plan to continue eating intuitively as best I can, unless I hit a plateau or something, then I will re-evaluate…but I think what is wonderful about this is that it is teaching me to listen to my body and how to eat in a way that is maintainable!

All you guys who’ve been complaining about it, I feel your pain. I really do.

I’ve been a bit worried about how far I can run and I’ll be able to do the full 5k. I realised I’ve been including my 5 minute warm up walk in my timings. So today I did my 5 minute warm up and then I ran for an extra 40 minutes on top of that. 40 minutes!

Go me!

It’s not almost 7:30 pm. I had my meal exactly 12 hours ago. I’m stopping, I’m making myself something healthy to eat now. I hate feeling weak because I’m restricting myself.

I ran last night!  For the first time in, like, a month.  I ran close to 1.5 miles, maybe 1.2 miles.  At any rate, I ran! It was almost easy, too, which freaked me out a little bit.  I wasn’t timing myself too seriously, but I knew that for having run as far as I had at that particular point, I should have been breathing a little heavier.  It was probably because I took my asthma meds prior to running (the asthma meds I’ve been without for nearly as long as I haven’t been running. Connection, maybe?!).  Maybe it’s because I don’t weigh as much as I did when I was running before.  I don’t know how I did it, but I shed another 5-8 pounds (depending on the scale, of course).  Probably has to do with me participating in this “No Junk Food for the Month of June” challenge on Facebook.  It’s done me some good; I can’t even fathom eating a bag of chips or anything without true nutritional value.  Even now when I am DEAD BROKE, a bag of chips would be cheap and quick and filling for a time.  But, a banana from the fruit guy is the same amount of change, and even more filling and nutritious.  I guess this is what boyfriend was always talking about when he’d say, “Eat real food.”  Had to figure it out the hard way. 

Yeah, so I ran last night, and I’ll probably do so again tonight or tomorrow morning.

That’s all.

serendipitybabyy said: - We probably know more about the scientific weight loss aspects than any normal person would.

THIS IS SO TRUE. I think that’s one of the biggest myths about those with eating disorders- that our actions are due to ignorance about nutrition. I’ve read both diet books and medical textbooks extensively in an attempt to known as much possible about weight loss. I also had a nutritionist after I was diagnosed last year, so I know how I’m affecting my body.

So, I haven’t done a GPOYW or a progress picture in a while, it took me a couple of pages on my blog even to find a recent picture.

ANYWAY, yesterday I was (and still am) running low on clothes, so I decided to just grab this gray shirt that I normally don’t wear because it’s a little too tight and too short. Well, I pulled it on and holy baggy-ness batman! This is NOT the same shirt I used to wear!

Let us all ignore my insane face in the first picture. I know they are taken at different angles, but you can even see how much baggier the shirt is on my now. Not to mention how much smaller my upper arms look and can I mention that my boobs look a lot bigger too (you can’t realllly tell that in this picture thought….)? tmi? AND LOOK AT MY FINGERS! They are soooo much less sausagey now! HURRAH!

Could I be dorkier though? No? I didn’t think so….

Oh my gosh I hurt. Such a good day at the gym. 

First I walked for like 10 minutes on the treadmill. I almost forgot to stop, since I was just warming up. My body was ready to keep going! 

Then I did the whole line of machines, 20 reps on each. I did as much weight as I could, which was 50 or 70 on the leg machines and 20 or 30 on the arm ones. 

After that, I tried the elliptical again. It kicked my ass, seriously! I loved it. 

According to my Lose It! App, I burned 500 calories today. I definitely feel like it. I love the feeling of pushing myself just the right amount! 

So one suggests that weight loss is specific to blood type and the other notes that weight loss is possible with the elimination of grains. If I follow both books, I need to eliminate my grains that I love so much! 

Anyone think there’s any truth to these statements in Dr Peter J.D’Adamo’s Eat Right 4 Your Type& Gary Taubes’ Why We Get Fat and What To Do About It?

Need a lot more improvement, but i’m not going to get too...

I’ve lost 1 pound in 2 friggin dayyyyysss ! And just come back from a 2 mile run baby !

Bob Harper’s Fitness Tip to Stay Motivated #1: Trust the Process 

• “Your body has changed from exercising and eating well, so you know the program works,” says Harper. “Don’t start questioning it or give up because you’ve stopped seeing noticeable progress. If you’re doing everything right, your body just has to go through an adjustment period.”

Bob Harper’s Fitness Tip to Stay Motivated #2: Try Not to Obsess

• “Don’t focus on the 10, 20, or 50 pounds you’re still hoping to lose,” says Harper. “That’s too daunting. Take it day by day with small goals. When you get up, think, ‘Okay, I have to do my cardio workout and I’m going to make smart choices at lunch.’ Check your healthy habits on your to-do list.”

Bob Harper’s Fitness Tip to Stay Motivated #3: Let Your Body Rest

• “You’ve been pushing yourself for a couple of months now. If you’re feeling worn out, take a day off, then return to your routine the next day,” suggests Harper. “The workouts are designed to break down your muscles so they get stronger, but they won’t if you don’t give them time to recover.”

Bob Harper’s Fitness Tip to Stay Motivated #4: Don’t Get Comfortable

• If you keep doing a particular workout that you love—maybe 45 minutes on the elliptical—stop! “Instead, slash the time in half and jack up the intensity,” says Harper. “Your muscles will think, ‘What the heck is going on?’ and that’s exactly what will get you over the hump.”

Bob Harper’s Fitness Tip to Stay Motivated #5: Keep Reading SHAPE!

• “Every month it’s filled with ways to change up your workout and stay inspired. Use them!” says Harper. “I also recommend taking group fitness classes, where you’re surrounded by likeminded people who enjoy working out. They’re fantastic motivation.”

I was feeling a bit down about my lack of loss for the last 2 days so I used a photo I took before my diet started (about 2 weeks before) and one I took 2 days ago!

Be prepared for sudden changes in your meal plan. For example, my uncle handed me a take out menu and told me to pick out lunch. So instead of a peanut butter sandwich and Dr. Pepper, I’m going to have a small bacon and mozzarella calzone and water. I’ll just walk a little bit further or dance a little bit longer than I originally planned.

oatmeal ( delicious with skim milk )

Whole egg ( with the yolk of course )

berries ( many kinds )

avocado

skim milk ( with fiber like tropicana slim milk )

I spent my grocery money for the week on a silk romper so I’m having coffee and toast as my only meal of the day

it’s cost-effective plus helps with weight loss!

You know how people say “from head to toe”

no exaggerating right now. Everything from my head to my toes hurt! haha and the fact that my toes hurt surprises the hell out of me.

I can’t really complain though. I got most of my room moved in and unpacked AND can easily count it as my workout until I can get my treadmill back up and running.

OMG! I forgot my workout DVD at my dads house! Guess I gotta make another trip haha. Not that I’m planning on doing a workout in this state or anything lol.

Chocolate for breakfast?  YES!!!!  This muffin is AMAZING and only 100 calories!!!  I usually eat it with a cup of fruit for breakfast on the mornings I wake up craving chocolate!!!  You feel like your cheating, but you are totally not!!!  There are many different flavors to choose from on their website (which you can view by clicking on the picture).  The only thing that is annoying is that they only sell standard flavors in stores (chocolate, corn, banana nut), if you want the more advanced flavors (chocolate chip mint, chocolate peanut butter, etc.) you need to order them off line!!  This brand also sells cake mix, muffintops, brownies, and cakes!!!!!  I am in love with these things!!!!!!!! TRY THEM :)

Need a lot more improvement, but i’m not going to get too down on myself.

This has seriously made my night.

This has seriously made my night. 

Shame it was anonymous because now I can’t even thank this person and tell them how much they’ve boosted my self esteem and motivation.

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