South (son of a) Beach Diet

Okay so I am sitting in a bar association committee meeting right now (on conference call) and thought maybe I could blog. I have been pretty much over blogging but I like keeping a journal of what is going on. Besides-- we are discussing Alec Baldwin and domestic violence in our meeting(fo real).

So a few years ago I was reading the People Magazine New Year's edition-- you know the "I LOST HALF MY SIZE" issue that they put out when they have ran out cover stories about the Angelina Jolie/Jennifer Aniston/Brad Pitt love triangle.

Anyway, I read about the South Beach diet and decided to try it out. I lost 15 pounds and went from a size 8 to size 4 in about 6 weeks  (and, yes, I do get most of my health and beauty advice from People magazine). Fast forward a few years-- and I have a pretty super sized muffin on top of my "skinny" size 8 jeans. damn-it.

I went to Mexico in April and spent the whole month prior to my trip running on the damn treadmill (getting up to 4 miles a day) and I think I may have lost only like 4 pounds. Frustrating! I hate my 42 year old worn out metabolism.

Since I don't have 14 hours a day to work out like this ho,

(That is what she claims.)

I thought I would try that damn south beach diet again this week. So that is what I did on Monday.

If I can remember right, the 3rd day is the hardest-- then your cravings for refined carbs are supposed to diminish after that point. It had damn well better.  I just ate about 914 pounds of vegetables dipped in hummus and what I really want to do right this second is eat a can or two of Pringles and run someone over with a truck or smoke a cigarette and kick a baby. One or the other. Crap.


Wish me luck Chuck.


My anniversary is coming up at the end of August and I want to be somewhere in a bathing suit.

i need a uk ana texting buddy! i’m 5’5, 169 lb but working on it. my number is...

Weigh-in #26
Week 26
Start (old scales) - 175lbs
Start (new scales) - 169.5lbs
Last - 164.6lbs
Current - 163.2lbs
Loss - 1.4 lbs
New Scale Total Loss - 6.3lbs
Total Loss So Far - 14.3lbs
Pounds Until Halfway Point - 4.45lbs

June Measurements

How tall are you? Do you like your height

I’m 5’3 1/2 and yes i love my height. Sometimes I wish i was a little taller because i feel I’m a little short for my age (im 21) haha but i dont think i will be growing anymore. The best thing is that I can wear heels and not look too tall. 

I just want some pizza

a large cheese pizza from dominos oh my god that sounds so good right now FUCK

when I lose 20 pounds I will allow myself to have three slices of cheese pizza from dominos. 

184 here I come

one of my favorites

Breakfast!! Nomnom :)

Strawberry yogurt, berries and almond flakes

Green tea

thinspo update :]

It bothers me when people post pictures of girls and say things like “I can’t wait to look like that!” or “She has the perfect body!” 

Why can’t you wait to look like yourself when you get fit? I don’t see the point in obsessing over someone else’s body just because you don’t look like them. Sure, seeing someone’s success story is amazing. I love reading about another’s journey, because it helps motivate me. I have the “If they can do it, I can do it!” mentality. 

But don’t beat yourself up if you don’t look just like them, and definitely don’t aim to look exactly like them. If you do, you may end up being sorely disappointed, because (here’s a shocker) your body isn’t exactly like someone else’s.

Just aim to do and be your best, and you will love yourself even more when you finally reach your goal. 

i’m 5 foot 6 inches. here’s my story: I’ve lost 0 pounds and been dieting/working out since January (i’ve been slacking off this past month). BUT i’ve gone from an XL to an L in shirts! and alomost 3 sizes in pants! i know it might be muscle gain but like i said, i’ve been slacking this last month and i just really want the scale number to drop. pleeeeease, i would love advice/motivation from ANYONE!

STAYY—BEAUTIFULL.TUMBLR.COM

It’s called a combination swiss ball pike and roll-out.

Sounds like a medieval torture device. But it’s actually easy to learn and extremely efficient. In fact, you can probably get a killer ab workout by doing this move fewer than 10 times.

“If someone was looking at one exercise and wanted to make sure he was getting the most abdominal work done in a way that makes him look better and function better,” says trainer Nick Tumminello, “this is the exercise to do.”

To start the pike/roll-out, simply hold yourself in a pushup position with your feet on a swiss ball. (To make the exercise easier, move the swiss ball towards your belly button) With your body in a plank (straight) position, keep your legs straight and push your hips towards the ceiling while keeping your back flat. After straightening your hips and coming back to the start position, push your body backwards on the ball until your arms are fully extended in front of you and your legs are fully extended behind you.

If you can’t see this video, you can watch it HERE

(source)

Finally got a tape measurer…here my June measurements. I will compare on July 2!

Height: 5’11

Weight: 229 lbs.

Bust: 44.5

Waist: 37.5

Hips: 49 (YIKES!)

Left Thigh: 24.5

Right Thigh: 24

Left Calf: 16.5

Right Calf: 16

Left Arm: 13. 5

Right Arm: 13.5

That was kind of scary, especially the hip measurements. My goodness. Still, I would rather know and face the problem head on than ignore the problems like I have been for almost 2 years!

There’s things that keep popping up in my dash, y’know? Things i don’t enjoy!Let...

Lots of Uni work to do today so not completely focused on my goals :/

I went way over on carbs I think :(

Food

Daily Milk 3

B. Beans 4

   Brown Toast 4

   Scrambled eggs 4

D. Haddock 2

   Potatoes 2

  Vegetables 0

  Rice 8

Snacks

Shredded wheat 4

Fruit salad and natural yogurt 1

Slice of Brown Bread 2

Slice of chicken 1

Total 35

Exercise

Day 7 of the 30 Day Shred

Moo

:)

Sweats for t-t-t-todayyyyyyy!!

Body Attack was a KILLER! I think that I work harder when the class has more people (i.e. not SO many people that I’m bumping into broads left and right, but enough that I wanna show off). And considering the routine was almost the same as yesterday, I was pretty accustomed to the moves and could just work it.

Today, for dinner, we’re making a BBQ chicken pizza!!  Whole wheat dough, BBQ sauce, baked chicken, and 2% fat cheddah!  Mmmm.  Can’t wait to try it.

ALSO: weighed myself today and was 174, 2 lbs down since my initial heart attack of a weigh in yesterday/Wednesday so I feel like that’s at least reasonable.

Things are looking up, with no major MEAL related events this weekend (when things revolve around eating, I tend to join in on those things…)

Tomorrow: Farmer’s market early in the AM, pancake saturday, and BodyJam followed by the POOL! Glorious.

From 325lbs (5/4/07) to 187 (6/3/11).  Still 20% body fat.  BUT  Traps showing up nicely.  Same with shoulders.  But my head looks huge in this picture, no?

 I won’t be able to finish these 30 days because I’ll be in Korea in 20 days, so I’m going to cheat and answer some questions ahead of time.

Day 01 - Your stats

Day 02 - How tall are you? Do you like your height?

Day 03 - A picture of your fitspiration. What features do you like about this person? 

Day 04 - Your greatest fears about weight loss.

Day 05 - Why do you really want to lose this weight? Are you doing it for you?

Day 06 - Do you binge? If so, explain why you think you do.

Day 07 - Do your friends and family know you’re trying to lose weight? Do they support you? 

Day 08 - Your workout routine.

Day 09 - Did people ever make comments about your weight in a negative way?

Day 10 - What was the hardest thing you gave up during your weight loss journey?

Day 11 - Your favorite fitspo blog and why?

Day 12 - What food plan do you normally follow each day?

Day 13 - Are you losing weight in a healthy or unhealthy way?

Day 14 - What is your ultimate goal weight/look?

Day 15 - Are you vegan or vegetarian? If so, has this helped you lose weight? If not, would you ever consider turning vegan or vegetarian?

Day 16 - When did you first decide to lose weight?

Day 17 - What is your favourite treat meal?

Day 18 - What food is your weakness?

Day 19 - When is your favourite body part to work on? Why?

Day 20 - What is your favourite form of cardio?

Day 21 - What is your favourite resource for healthy living info?

Day 22 - Quick! What are the 5 things you like best about yourself?

Day 23 - Did the media play a role in your wanting to lose weight?

Day 24 - When did you first notice your hard work paying off?

Day 25- When you reach your goals, what do you plan on doing to maintain your results?

Day 26 - What excites you most about reaching your goals?

Day 27 - How do you stay on track in tempting situations? (e.g. BBQs, Birthday parties, out with friends, etc.)

Day 28 - Have you had any setbacks you’ve had to overcome? How did you do it?

Day 29 - Your definition of beauty.

Day 30 - 10 facts about you! And now, what are your stats?

Tonight Im doing my Coach plan run from Nike+

so I only have to do .64 miles. which is cool cause my feet really hurt.

I have to run for 1:00 and then walk for 5:00, relatively easy.  Im on the Walk to Run program so, 

and then after I’ll probably do some Yoga err something./

i wanted to get up and run a mile before getting in the pool, but my feet were still sore from running the past few days (high arches are a bummer), so i took a short nap before getting in the pool and swimming 100 laps. i’m so tired, like i feel like i’m about to fall asleep typing this, but it felt absolutely amazing. 

afterwards i was starving, so despite my binge earlier i made myself a bowl of whole grain wheat penne pasta. i normally just kind of estimate what i put in, but i actually measured out everything this time. i’ve been really overestimating the amount of pasta i eat. i measured out 1 cup, like i figured i normally eat, but it turned out to make a HUGE bowl. and i always thought i used a full cup of sauce, but 1/2 a cup was plenty, even with the extra pasta. the bread was more calories than i thought though (150 calories for a medium sized piece of french bread, extra 30 for the tsp of butter…so worth it though). so dinner ended up being 517 calories. oh well. 

food journal:

breakfast- whole wheat bagel with ~1 tbs butter (170 calories…i remembered the calories for butter wrong. whoops.)

lunch- pb&j on whole wheat (270 calories)

snack- fudge (400 calories), 2 pieces of taffy and a few tortilla chips (100 calories)

dinner- whole grain wheat penne pasta with mushroom red sauce and french bread (517 calories)

desert- skinny cow ice cream sandwich (140 calories)

total- 1,597 

exercise journal-

swimming (100 laps-45 minutes)

yikes. weighing in tomorrow, let’s hope it goes well. if not i’ll have to stick to a strict 1300 calorie a day food plan…

I’m 5’3” and I’m fine with my height. I wouldn’t complain if I was an inch taller, but I’m really cool with what my height is right now because when I wear heels, I look about 125908125 feet tall.

That’s a lie, but heels > no heels but I’m still a good height.

…was a bad day. I only made it to the gym for half an hour and totally binged after dinner…like 500 calories worth. I don’t feel too bad because I did work my ass off this week, but the thing is I’ll be away all next week and my routine will be all messed up!! Just need to work out a little extra tomorrow and try to stay on track the rest of the weekend. I need a hug.

thepictureofhealth replied to your post:CalorieKing is telling me to lower my intake to 1230 calories per day.

How many do you eat now? 1230 isn’t that ridiculous. And your body can still function on that if you keep it as your net calories.

I was eating 1250 calories but the problem is I never have that as my net calories. I need to start eating back my exercise calories. I used to do it, then I stopped and had great results but now it’s slowed down heaps and I need to fuel my body. I’m more active than “light” but less than “moderate” thanks to my job. I’ll go back through my study notes today and work out my BMR and go from that. I think I can trust my own career change over a website that doesn’t give inbetween options.

jess-nelsonreblogged your post:CalorieKing is telling me to lower my intake to 1230 calories per day.

That’s the calorie intake…by daily…It’s not that bad if you eat light frequent meals.

No, it’s not bad but my problem as I mentioned above is that I don’t tend to eat back my exercise calories. I think 1230 is too low for me, because I’m more active than CalorieKing says I am because they don’t have an “inbetween” option from light to moderate like it does when you calculate your BMR. So I’ll be doing that today and working out my calorie needs for myself.

What good is learning this stuff to become a Personal Trainer if I don’t practice what I preach? I need to work these things out for myself before I can work them out for anyone else.

There’s things that keep popping up in my dash, y’know? Things i don’t enjoy!

Let me post the picture and i’ll explain why it pissed me off.

Now, before i begin, i am NOT promoting anorexia or bullimia.

Anyway.

You guys do realize that not all insanely skinny girls are Anorexic, right? There are some with extremely high metabolisms who cannot control how skinny they are. Now before you go off saying, “Well there’s a difference from someone with a high metabolism and someone who is Anorexic and a bag of bones,” I’d like to dissagree.
My stepmother has a very high metabolism and is just as skinny as that girl on the right. She eats A LOT but never gains a pound. Because of people saying things like that picture above she has a low self esteem. She tells me every day that she hates being this skinny and wishes she could gain some weight. People approach her and tell her that ‘there’s help out there’ so many times, and it makes her feel horrible. She feels disgusting. She hates it. But she can’t control it. How do you think it makes her feel when people say things like this? It’s horrible.

Why is it that when you call a fat girl ‘gross’ everyone hates you and calls you a monster, but when someone walks up to a skinny girl and tell her to eat a burger, everyone praises you and agrees? Double standard much?

Not all skinny girls want to be that skinny. Many can’t control it. But yes, there are girls who are anorexic and bullimic as well.

But just as there are issues with weight in America about how so many are overweight and unhealthy, there are girls who feel so horrible about theirselves that they actually stop eating and lose mad amounts of weight. To me it goes hand in hand - they are both eating disorders. Why should a girl with such a low self esteem that they are actually putting their life at risk get so much hate? It’s not going to make them eat, let’s face it. It’s going to lower their self esteem even more. Instead you need to offer them advice, talk to them, and help them seek professional guidence or they will die.

Same with overweight individuals, they need professional help, you can’t tell them to go eat a salad.

So why are overweight individuals easily sympathized with while Skinny girls are treated like demons? Like its their fault and they oughtta be ashamed, when its also the overweight individual’s fault for being bigger?

It’s ridiculous.

So i’d be really interested to hear your opinion on this matter, but please refrain from insults or i will not answer you. I want an intelligent conversation, not a fighting match, because i wont deal with it.

Again, i am not promoting Anorexia/Bullimia no more than i am promoting overeating. I’m simply trying to have my say on the matter. They are both disorders that should BOTH be sympathized with instead of ridiculed.

Thank you.

I was amused but scared they were onto me :S

INTAKE: Not too good :/

EXERCISE: none/ just walking around the mall for a few minutes.

Today’s exercise! Got up at 7 AM and was at the gym by 8 AM. I did 45 minutes of working out!

• Bike: 20 minutes. 4 miles. 90.2 calories :)
• Leg Press: 3 sets of 120 lbs. 12 reps each. Legs felt tired today. Couldn’t manage the 140 lbs I was doing earlier this week. I love the leg press but I need to give it a break tomorrow.
• Rows: 3 sets of 37.5 lbs, 50 lbs, and 44 lbs. Each with 12 reps. I challenged myself on this machine to try a higher weight class and it worked well! Tomorrow I will try for 2 sets at 50 lbs.
• Overhead Press: 3 sets. 2 sets at 37.5 lbs, 1 set at 25 lbs. 12 reps twice, 8 once. 
• Crunches: 50 crunches. 40 more oblique crunches, 20 on each side. Felt sore today. My core is probably even weaker than my upper body strength. Probably worn out from yesterday’s crunches.
• Squats: 1 set of 10 so far. Planning on doing more throughout the day. I think squats are a good way to stretch out my tight hamstrings.
• Stretch: Did another round of post biking stretching. I’ve heard that you shouldn’t stretch “cold” muscles. 

Did quite a bit for a 45 minute workout. I’m working my psychological endurance up to start thinking about 30 minute biking warm-ups :) Almost had the willpower to do it today, tomorrow’s outlook is good.

I don’t know if I’m burning a significant amount of calories or not but I’m feeling better at least psychologically about working out everyday. It’s healthy to do 30 minutes a day they say and I’m sticking close to that right now. I want to work up to a longer workout over time but for someone who usually only works out during the summers anyway (and by that I mean 20 minute jogs, twice a week out of boredom) I’ve really come a long way in just a week :)

Maybe I’ll be able to keep it up throughout the school year too!

That’s How I’ve Been Feeling Lately…. I Was Working 3 Jobs For The Past 3 Weeks Up Until Last Week & Currently Working 2 Jobs Until June 15th When CPS Kids Are Out Of School! I’m Starting To Develop A Blah Life As It’s All Work & No PLAY!…Lol I Just Need To Get Back On A Daily Work Schedule Because I’ve Not Been Eating Right & I’ve Gain A Few Pound Due To Me Not Working Out As I Was About Three Weeks Ago… Haven’t Been To My Weight Watchers Meeting In Two Weeks:(….UGH! I Was Doing Really Good Had Lost A Totally Of 13 Lbs But, Stepped On The Scale & I’m Up A Few Pounds….:( So, I Know What I Need To Do But, All In All I Know I Bite Off More Than I Could Chew When I Agreed To Start My Summer Gig Before The Kids Got Outta School! Working All Three Jobs Had Become Tooo Much That I Had To Quit MCA-Chicago…. 

Within The Next Week I Am Getting Back On My Workout Routine & Will Start Logging My Meals On WW Cause I Refuse To Ruin All The Hard Work I’ve Done In The Pass Three Months! 

ECA Online Courses Are Starting At The End Of The Month & I’m More Nervous Than Excited….Lol

Anyways, I Have To Work Today At MP From 11-6pm… Hope The Day Goes By Fast!

Later, Gators!

I woke up and run/walked 2 miles- I walked more than I would have liked since even though it was cool, it was really humid.  Bleh, but I still did it! :D

Now I’m about to do Ab Ripper X and maybe start day 15(!) of p90x!  It doesn’t seem like it’s been 2 weeks already.  I’ll probably hold off on that because I’m pretty dang hungry, though.

THEN JOB INTERVIEW

(then arms and back workout, probably)

Then mediterranean food-

Then I’m gonna go to the roller derby.

YUS.

I really thought I was going to gain from yesterday.

I’m losing weight noticeably. My size 16 jeans fit on the hips again without straining. I’ve been at this diet for 6 days and it seems like the water weight coming off is really helping me get back in to my clothes. I’m well aware that the weight in fat is going to come off steadier and I hope that I don’t get discouraged with only 1-2lb coming off a week.

I’ve had to up my calorie intake. While running around with two children, housework, cooking, walking and staying up in the nights comforting a six month old baby, 950 calories is making me feel faint and constantly hungry. I don’t think it would be so bad if I wasn’t burning at least 400 calories a day in strength and cardiovascular exercise which brings my net calories way under 950.

I’ve upped my intake to 1100 which allows me a slightly larger portion at dinner. I’m still eating very well and I not consuming any junk apart from Monster energy drinks. I’m still exercising to tone and to feel healthy. I’m still very positive about the next week and the week after that.

I would kill for a big slice of Red Velvet cake or Tiramasu right now. Last night I drank a double Tia Maria and Coke and wanted to eat the entire glass because it tasted so much like my beloved Tiramasu. I think if I allow myself to treat I’ll be treating myself with a small portion of Tiramasu.

I’ve also promised Sean that once I’ve lost 20lb we’ll go to Peachy Keens because he loves that place as much as I do. I have also promised I will really treat myself and I’ll eat a three course meal. One day off.

Ripped in 30 Daily Meal Plans:

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It’s been 16 days, 16 days! This slightly blows my mind because when I used to go on “health bouts” I’d usually last a week before I fell victim to a binge or started having extreme doubt. It feels so unimaginably good not to be the victim anymore. 

Today’s weigh in: 134.5 

It feels so weird being here, because I never thought’d I get here, in a million years, I was the girl that’d given up all hope? And yet here I am! As far as numbers go I always aimed at 130 mostly because at the height of my ED I weighed 127 and looked frail and sick (I now know that’s because of my unhealthy habits not the number) but regardless I am a little weary with numbers. I definitely don’t see myself going anywhere below 125, I don’t think it’d suit my body, I think the lowest” perhaps 126. But let’s just play it by week and see what happens because I’m this far and already feel great. Numbers aren’t a big deal anymore.  

*Celebrating with oatmeal and peanut butter, it has been too long. This is the reason I woke up so early…*

So, yesterday, I went to a nice store to get myself a congratulatory dress in a US size 6 finally, (that same dress wouldn’t zip up in a 10 a month and a half ago!) and had the following odd conversation with the lady on the cash.

Her (very obese nosy older lady - I’m not saying this just to be mean, she could barely walk): So, what’s the occasion for you getting this dress? A wedding, a party? 

Me: Mmm… no.. just for me.

Her: Well, any special reason??

Me (exasperated): It’s just a reward for a personal accomplishment. I lost some weight.

Her: How much? How long did it take? How many sizes did you go down???

Me: I went from a 10 to a 6 in a month and a half.

Her: OH MY! You’re not STARVING yourself, are you??? Because my daughter starved herself but she didn’t lost ANY weight, so don’t starved yourself!!

Me (starting to feel really awkward, feeling paranoid she KNOWS): Um, no. Just eating less and more vegan meals, exercising more… 

Her (tears up): Well, sweetie, you’re SUCH an inspiration to so many people! Such a success story, and did it the healthy way, too! Here’s a coupon for 25% off ANYTHING next time you’re here! (It’s kind of an expensive-ish store)

Me (feeling increasingly awkward): Thank you…

I took the coupon and in all honesty will use it, but I felt so terrible that the lady thought I was an “inspiration’. Ugh, I’m so disgusted with myself, I should not inspire anyone to lose weight the way I am. I’m doing it, because it gives me a semblance of sanity, and the “healthy way” does NOT work for me. The devious me is pleased that I somehow “tricked” the poor lady, but the rest of me is just feeling…. ugh. 

I took a photo in a mirror this morning, to considering posting a “in process” progress, but once I saw it, I burst into tears. I can’t let anyone see me like this  yet. The scale shows a loss of 20 pounds, but somehow I CAN’T SEE IT even in a photo. Maybe when I lose 25 pounds in total. I’ll try again, I promise.

after today I only have two days left on the HSGD.

This is the only sweet things I’ve had all day. Leave me be. Me and my brownie want to make sweet love.  -__-

collarbones for mondays thinspiration 

really fucking sucks.

I would probably go more often if there was nobody there to see me be fat, or make me feel more self-conscious than I do normally. And the worse part is that my gym is part of a swim club, so I get to see all these perfect thin girls tanning/swimming while I bust my ass in the gym… It should be motivating, but it just makes me even more depressed.

If you want to read my progress blog, please message me for the password! I recently made it password protected but just ask for the magic word. ;)

Wow. A year. It’s been a year of this. I’m proud. And I can’t say November until now has seen much in the way of results, but it means I can maintain at least, which I was never really able to do before.

The minus 3 had to be because I was bloated last week, so that makes me feel very, very good!

But now I want to push myself. I find that although nearly 17 pounds lighter, I’m disgusted by myself in pictures. I not only find myself to be larger than what I see in the mirror, but I have a double chin and my face just looks ugly, old and gross to me.

It’s my motivation to become re-dedicated again this summer, because I’m just not okay with the weight I am. This used to be my heavy weight so I’m trying to remember that.

Ask if you want the password. 

I admit it…I’m addicted to carbs, and that’s no way to lose weight! I realize I need much more protein in my diet (especially if I want to see results from P90X!) but I’m having trouble, because I’m a vegetarian! any suggestions?

maybe I’ll start it over again.

yep sounds good to me

Day Four- Your greatest fears about weight loss.

6/4/11

337.8lbs, down 4.2lbs from last week!

No pics yet.

I can feel myself being more… not bony but… bony?  I don’t know how to put it.  

Basically I’m able to feel things on my body I haven’t felt in a long time, like my collarbones, and my feet and hands are a lot more sinewy than they were before.  I’ve been noticing muscles I haven’t seen ever since I started p90x. 

Yay!

also, personal time is a lot more intense, ngl, and I’ve noticed that I’m slimmer *downstairs* as well. ;)

989 calories burned walking 2.46 miles in 50:00 minutes.

Day Twenty-Two- What was your lowest weight? How and why did you gain?

To be honest, I have no idea. I don’t weigh myself often. I’m going to guess about 100.

I gained mostly because I quit sports towards the end of high school, but also because I went to college, where healthy options are available, but less healthy options are plentiful.

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I must start by saying that I ate entirely too much last night for dinner. I must also say that I don’t believe one should do any differently when eating at one of the highest rated Italian restaurants in San Francisco. In fact, those are the only two things I will say about that.

I didn’t eat too terribly today, considering what I wanted to eat.

Breakfast- Apple, a few cashews

Lunch- Falafel wrap, and I took a lot of the pita off, and my first soda in a month

Dinner- A grilled cheese made with 1 slice of whole wheat bread, a serving of Healthy Choice red beans and rice soup

I’ve been sneaking bits of chocolate, sips of my family’s coffee and other random things all day. I think it’s PMS. Also, even though I’m glad I ate so much yesterday (because it was so good and so worth it), I’m feeling really gross today.

We got home too late from our trip for me to work out. I start work tomorrow, and am planning on loading my lunch with fruit and veggies to hopefully make me feel better. I’ll throw in a little chocolate or something sweet just in case, because these cravings are terrible! I haven’t had any cravings until now!

I think I’ll go drink some water in an attempt to clean out my system.

so i finally got a real gym membership! (yay)

the whole going to my university gym just wasnt working out. the city upped street parking fees so it was like a quarter for five minutes. and then the gym was only open certain hours and not on the weekends and i could only park on the street for like this two hour window…it just wasnt working out. hahaha

so i trucked myself down to the local la fitness and the guy was pretty nice about setting me up with a membership that i could afford.
i went to a place last summer for like $75 for three months which was really small and like my entire high school went there. i just didnt feel like dealing with people hah that sounds horrible, but its true.
you know when you run into someone who like you ‘know’ and its all awkward cause you should probably say hi, but you dont. and then the other person doest say anything so its just this big awkward encounter.

…yeah thats my old gym.

but anyways, this la fitness its pretty nice. its really large and i can take yoga classes for free and stuff so im pumped about that.

today i just jogged on the treadmill for an hour. i was kinda intimidated to go down with the juice head guido’s (okay..they werent really guerillas. but i still felt stupid going down there. :P) to lift weights and do leg machines.

i have this huge bubble blister on my pinky toe, which im hoping takes care of itself by tomorrow…cause i actually want to go to the gym. haha

oh! and today i also pulled weeds and put up this gazebo in my backyard.

in other words, today was pretty successful. right?

sweet dreams. :) 

Breakfast: oatmeal with a sliced banana, some walnuts, and cinnamon-sugar; coffee

Mid-morning snack: bagel twist from DD; more coffee

Lunch: spinach salad with red cabbage, cucumber, carrots, raw pumpkin seeds, raisins, and oil/balsamic vinegar; multigrain tortilla chips with guac

Dinner: (at Pizzeria Uno) Veggie Curry Pasta (small plate- I love that they have this option!) with a side of broccoli and a breadstick; unsweetened iced tea

Nighttime snack: (at Starbucks) Skinny Vanilla Latte (tall)

Exercise: elliptical for 1 hour

Sorry I haven’t been posting! This past week has been madness! I had to get all my traffic tickets straightened out. I did traffic school for one and went to court and lost for the other… But hey. Haha, at least they’re dealt with!

On the way, I lost track of my eating habits because of all the stress… But I’m back on it. And I actually spent two hours on the elliptical at the gym today because I was engulfed in the NBA Finals (GO MAVS!). Hahaha.

Anyway, I’m going to Disneyland on Thursday! Woohoo! Every time I go, I always manage to lose weight. I guess it’s because we don’t eat as much, and we’re always walking!

But until then, it’s healthy eating and being a gym rat. (=

xoxo sarah

Hey there! I’m actually not tracking my calories for weight loss reasons, I’m doing it to ensure that I’m not undereating.. which is very possible considering I’m not used to getting all of my calories from fruits and greens.

I have nothing against those foods, I just like to keep things simple and concentrate more on fruits and leafy greens. I also don’t particularly like the taste of those foods. I actually have a ton of different fruits and greens in my kitchen (I’ll be sure to do a post one of these days), I just don’t eat all of them on the same day. For example, I would eat a bag of grapes for breakfast on one day.. and mangos the next. Uncomplicated mono-meals are the easiest to digest, and it’s kind of fun to be able to dedicate an entire meal to one of my favorite fruits.

But yes, variety is key. Oh, and so nice to see that produce gets you excited.. that is quite rare in this day and age!

I am afraid that I will not be about to loose enough weight in time to look good for my wedding, also that I won’t notice/be able to recognize and be happy when I reach a good weight

just looked through some pictures of me

This means I do most of my workouts at night.  Mostly before bed.  I’m a freak and working out before bed actually makes me sleep better so…

This also sucks, because I reach my net calories and then burn them and then end up in a situation where I run around 600 net calories and don’t feel like eating. 

I’m trying to start working out in the morning.  Like today, I walked/ran this morning on the treadmill and it was nice.  So I guess I’m gonna keep doing that.

So today I officially started cycle 1: accelerate.

The purpose of this cycle is to start the rapid weight loss basically by detoxing your body. For the next seventeen days, I’m allowed unlimited protein (meat, poultry, fish, and my favorite, eggs!), but I have to limit my carbs. By reducing carbs, my body will have to turn to fat to convert into energy. Also, cutting sugar is a big part of this step. The book suggest truvia as an alternative to sugar, and also to splenda/equal/sweet’n’low.  I HATE splenda with such a passion, but I had a truvia in my green tea before and it tasted like sugar. So thumbs up for that.

Anyhoo, I don’t want to get into all that technical stuff right now, i’ll do that maybe over the weekend. Today was particularly hard because I didn’t have any food prepared, and I only had some frozen vegetables, a little chicken. but here’s how my day went:

-Woke up at 10:30am: i’m still trying to straighten out my sleep cycle, so I had gone to bed around 2am, so I still got eight hours. I already take meletonin (a vitamin) to sleep, so I took that about an hour ago, so I should be asleep fairly quickly, and I hope to be up.

-Drank 8oz of hot water with half a lemon: the book suggests to do this every morning because it “awakens your digestive juices,” or something like that. to be honest, it doesn’t taste too good, but the lemon did wake me up some.

-By 11:00am went for a walk: the book (yes, I will be referencing the book a lot so I do suggest you buy it) directs to have 17 minutes of exercise to day, twice ideally. The 17 minutes I think is just a cutesy consistency with the title, but I walked around the state park for 45 minutes, just because it’s a full loop and I hate backtracking.

-Ate breakfast around 12:10: I still haven’t figured out if I want/should eat before or after walking, but today I decided to do it after. I had two scramble eggs with a sprinkle of low fat cheddar cheese with some salsa. Salsa is on the list of unlimited things you can have as dressings during this cycle, and it tastes really good with eggs. Also, by scrambling my eggs, I cut down on the amount of grease on my eggs.

-Lunch at 2:30: because I have to leave for work at 3:30, I had to have lunch a little early (meaning closer to breakfast than 3 hours, which is ideal). I made a salad with iceberg lettuce, orange peppers, cucumber, tomato, and a serving (palm sized) of grilled chicken. I drizzled a tablespoon of olive oil, with two tablespoons of balsamic vinaigrette for a dressing.

-Snack at 5:00pm: just had a chobiani Greek yogurt. nothing too special.

-Ritas: everyone at work got ritas and I caved and got a small vanilla custard (i figured it would hve less sugar than an Italian ice). I immediately regretted it, only ate three bites, and gave it to a coworker. I’m awarding myself ten points because I definitely would not have done that before.

-Dinner around 7:30: before work, steamed corn and defrosted some broccoli and had with another serving of chicken. it was pretty plain, but very filling. Corn actually isn’t on the list of unlimited veggies, but I didn’t have anything else. I’ll have to keep that in mind when stopping for veggies tomorrow.

-Cookies :( I baked some cookies for a friend that i’m seeing tomorrow and I munched on some dough. When the cookies were ready however, I let them cool and packed them up right away so I wouldn’t be tempted. I only had one small one with some milk. After eating healthy all day though, I do feel a little sick and “blah”

 

Today kind of look me by surprise, mostly cause I didn’t have all the food I needed. I need to buy a lot more veggies and fruit, and some more ingredients for meals. Tomorrow though, i’ve leaving my house fairly early and spending the day down at my friends house about two hours away. I hope to get in a walk in the morning before I leave and making breakfast, but i’m worried about the other meals, especially because I don’t know anything food places in the area. I am, however, looking forward to starbucks (for which my town lacks). I think i’m just going to go with an iced coffee with soy milk and a truvia. that’s not to be right?

See you later!

-A

I’ve never done it before- but I can’t stop feeling guilty for what I ate today. I’m scared to try it- but I feel like I have too. Ugh.

At least tomorrow is a new day.

Wednesday, June 8th 2011

To be honest I did slack of today and didn’t hit the gym, but I did do a little light exercise before bed

> 200 Crunches

30 Day Wight Loss Challenge

Day Three - Thinspiration

I’m not really into thinspiration. I look at it sometimes but usually to see what these girls are wearing. I’m really into fashion and clothes and things of that nature. I love lookbook.com and whowhatwear.com. I look at those websites all the time and i would love to feel more comfortable in my clothes and wear different, fun things! 

I also have a total girl crush on Binki Shapiro from the band Little Joy. She is beautiful, talented and has great STYLE. A really inspiring woman.

Haven’t had a chance to weigh myself yet this week. I’ve been crazy busy with summer school starting (chemistry from 9:30am to 2:30pm…sick)  and working six days this week. I managed to fit some exercise in tonight though. Did my first day of the 30 Day Shred and swam laps for about 30 minutes.

Morning~

In about 2 hours I’ll have my maths exam and all I can think about is, how can I get rid of these calories of my fxxking and horrible breakfast.

My mother forced me to eat 3 (!!!) little pieces of some kind of brownies. And then also gave me a sandwich for the exam. And if it’s not already enough, she gave me 5€ for lunch :’D

I think this woman doesn’t understand anything. Or my mind is just kinda damaged. I mean, HOW can people eat breakfast, snack, lunch and dinner?!

I would cry my eyes out if I had to eat this much…

But well~ that’s just my opinion. My family has very different thoughts.

Anyways. Wish me luck for the exam, I’ll be back after it.

Stay strong my sweeties ? 

Day Twenty-Six- What excites you most about reaching your ugw?

Half of it is the thrill of experiencing something new. Something I’ve never ever had. The second part is getting to wear the clothes. I want to wear anything I want. Mary Kate Olsen dresses in a way that if she had like, 10 spare pounds, she’d constantly look like a bag lady, rather than a billionaire. I want that power. 

couldn’t bring myself to do it. I hate myself right now.

Xenadrine Water
Breakfast: Grapes, Peach
Snack: Banana Chips
Xen Water
Lunch:  Protein Bar
Xen Water
Dinner: Breaded Fake Chicken Nuggets w/ Hot & Sweet Mustard and a side salad w/ fat free balsamic vinaigrette dressing

man junior year of high school I was gettinn bigg!

and even at the beginning of this year!

I may not be 100% happy with what I look like now, but I am glad I’ve lost weight!  

It motivates me to keep going! 

Yesterday's intake and exercise

Okay so I really didn’t want to post this buuuut…yeah, this is what I look like now. I think I’m a little bloated because I’m getting my period but you guys get the idea. I’m 5’8 and I haven’t weighed myself in like 3 days but I’m assuming I’m in 163-158 range?

little bit of progress. 

Less fatty arms/haven’t got layers of flab covering my hipbones.

I do however look pregnant. fml. 

I lost another 2.2 lbs! yay :)

Wow, this guy knows his shit!  Everything he says is so true and might be able to help you take weight loss to the next level.

i’m open to follow any weight loss blogs so if anyone knows any tell me! :333

 Breakfast: 

bananna & Morning star farms “sausage” and egg biscuit=7 pts

Lunch: 

Slow cooker Ropa Vieja with some cheese on top

Salad with a small bit of cheese and Crutons and 1000isl dressing = 10 pts

Dinner

Grilled chicken

Mashed potatoes(instant)

Stuffing

Creamed spinach with laughing cow light swiss = 14 

Snacks= 

WW fruties = 2

Jamba Juice bar= 2

Grilled turkey and cheese on light bread =5

39/59

activity points earned =2

Recipe for Ropa Vieja:  http://www.weightwatchers.com/food/rcp/index.aspx?recipeid=110251 I reccomend this recipe. I was really tasty. I added a 1/2 can of stewed tomatoes to mine. Plus this recipe makes a ton! Me and the boyfriend has made this into several meals and have some frozen. 

GAH! I still have 20 points left over! I am really having trouble eating all my points when I eat at home all meals. I could have had more veggies and fruit today, but I just would have been lower in points. I was feeling bad about the stuffing and potatoes with dinner. I made them both b/c my boyfriend really doesn’t eat veggies, so if my sides are veggies I usually find something quick and easy that he will eat. So far on my days off work, I have ussually be higher in the points, but for some reason today I didn’t go over board with the eating.

I need to find a better way to post this, I couldn’t get a screen shot to work for some reason. 

50 TIPS TO HELP YOU SUCCEED AT “NORMAL” EATING 
from psychology of eating expert Karen R. Koenig, LCSW, M.Ed. 
author of 


No matter how many years or decades you’ve been overeating or how many 
diets have failed you (notice I didn’t say that you failed on the diets but that they failed 
you!), you can learn how to become a “normal” eater—eating when you’re hungry, 
choosing satisfying foods, remaining aware and enjoying food, and stopping when 
you’re full or satisfied. To do so, you will have to be focused like a laser and persistent 
like a dog digging for a bone, not expect overnight success, switch your attention from 
the scale to your appetite, and learn effective life skills to manage stress and distress. 
I’ve taught hundreds of disregulated eaters how to eat “normally” and I can teach 
you! Here are 50 tips to speed you on your way… 

Self-Talk 
1. Look in the mirror daily and tell yourself you can learn the skills of “normal” eating. 
2. Instead of thinking there are “good” and “bad” foods, consider them as nutritional 
or non-nutritional (“good” and “bad” are moral terms that are best avoided in the 
food arena). 
3. Don’t put yourself down for the mistakes you make with food. Rather, lavishly 
praise yourself for all your successes, even the tiniest ones. 
4. If experience tells you that diets don’t keep your weight off, don’t try to convince 
yourself you should be dieting. Instead, give yourself points for trying a different 
approach. 
5. Never say anything to yourself you wouldn’t say to a young child you love, 
including calling yourself stupid, hopeless, bad, a failure, worthless. Be your own 
cheerleader by generating positive thoughts about your progress. 
6. Avoid all-or-nothing thinking and using words like never and always. Remind 
yourself that most of life is not black and white, but gray. 
7. Detoxify negative things people say about you that are untrue rather than repeating 
them to yourself. Remember that what people say belongs to them, not to you, 
even if your name is attached to their words. 
8. Ask yourself often how you are feeling so you can become connected to your 
emotions, but ask only with curiosity not condemnation. 
9. Stop judging yourself harshly and start developing self-compassion. Treat yourself 
lovingly and practice speaking to yourself with extreme esteem. 
10. Do not keep telling yourself that learning to be a “normal” eater is hard because 
saying so only programs you to find the work difficult. Instead, substitute the words 
challenging or doable. 

Hunger 
11. Check in with yourself often to see how hungry you are using descriptions such as 
not hungry, moderate, very, famished or a 1-10 scale. 
12. Every time you think about food, ask yourself if you’re really hungry enough to eat. 
13. Experiment with eating smaller meals more frequently. 
14. Consider your hunger as a signal that you need fuel, not that you have to go out 
and seek the most fantastic eating experience of your life. 
15. Practice believing that hunger is for fuel and pleasure, not for meeting emotional 
needs. 

Choosing Satisfying Foods 
16. Don’t get hung up on what other people are eating, but ask yourself what you 
would like to eat. 
17. Remind yourself that foods fall on a nutritional continuum (high value/low value), 
not on a moral continuum (good/bad). 
18. Never eat without stopping to consider what you want first. Spend time making a 
satisfying choice. 
19. Refrain from allowing guilt or shame to contaminate your eating decisions. 
20. Don’t eat foods you don’t find satisfying because they’ll remind you of being on a 
diet. 

Eating with Awareness and Enjoyment 
21. Before you eat, look at your food, the portion size, its presentation. Breathe 
deeply. 
22. Chew every mouthful thoroughly to release flavor. 
23. Let food sit on your tongue to let your taste buds absorb flavor. 
24. When you’re talking, stop eating and when you’re eating, stop talking. 
25. Stay connected to your body’s appetite signals while you’re eating. 
26. Push away guilt and shame while you’re eating and focus on sensory pleasure. 
27. Pause while you’re eating to see how you’re feeling about your food in terms of 
quality and quantity. 
28. Stop eating when flavor pleasure declines as it will after a while. 
29. Rather than being determined to polish off all of the food in front of you, seek the 
moment when flavor peaks and you feel an internal “Ah” of satisfaction—and stop. 
30. Keep asking yourself while you’re eating, “Am I full?” and “Am I satisfied?” 

Stopping When You’re Full or Satisfied 
31. Think of full as being enough food (fuel) in your belly and satisfied as being the 
high point of pleasure. 
32. Quantify fullness and satisfaction with numbers or words such as nearly, too, just 
or a 1-10 scale. 
33. When you feel full or satisfied, focus on that sensation and broadcast it to your 
whole body. 
34. When you’re done eating, put down utensils, push away your plate, get up—do 
whatever you need to do to disconnect yourself from the food. 
35. Make sure you’re not focusing on the food that’s left and believing you have to 
fini**** or clean your plate. You decide when enough is enough. 

Beliefs to Change 
36. From “I need to diet to lose weight” to “Diets don’t work long term.” 
37. From “This is too hard” to “I can learn to do this over time.” 
38. From “This will take too long” to “If I don’t change now, I’ll only be back in this 
same place again so I might as well get going on it.” 
39. From “Losing weight is the most important thing” to “I will lose weight if I honor my 
appetite and learn to eat ‘normally.’” 
40. From “I am bad/worthless/ugly if I’m overweight,” to “I accept my body as it is and 
will still try to improve it.” 

Stopping Emotional Eating 
41. When you have the urge to eat when you’re not hungry, ask yourself what you 
might be feeling. 
42. Remind yourself that feelings need a different response than food. 
43. Get to know what emotions trigger unwanted eating—boredom, loneliness, anxiety, 
shame, guilt, disappointment, helplessness—and then learn better ways of dealing 
with them. 
44. Keep a feelings log so you know what’s going on inside of yourself all day long. 
45. Reduce stress which will lessen frustration, helplessness, and feeling 
overwhelmed. 
46. Make sure you’re taking care of yourself as least as well as you take care of 
others. 
47. If you find yourself eating when you’re upset, don’t be hard on yourself. Be 
compassionate and curious and consider your behavior a learning experience. 
48. Get help through therapy if you have a history of trauma or abuse, as there is a 
strong correlation between such a history and emotional eating. 
49. Be responsible for yourself and don’t blame others for your emotional eating. 
50. Tell yourself that you can bear any emotion, practice doing so, and you’ll be 
amazed at the emotional muscle you’ll build.

If I start working out 5 times a week, I could possibly reach my ultimate goal weight by the time new years rolls around.

I think I’m going to try and ease into it. I’ll go for 45 minutes one day, and 60 minutes the next.

…idk I’ll figure something out.

Again, not very happy I went over 1200, but I did rollerblade for an hour again yesterday. I’m SO SORE this morning from it.

I kinda ate shit today :/

When I go back to school after summer…

i would just like to say that everyone should stop talking about Yuri’s weight loss. it’s her body and she has every right to look how she wants to look. what’s important is that she feels beautiful, and it looks like she enjoys the way she looks so stop gossiping about it.

Cool.

Dear Young Me,

Sorry, I won’t ever add approximately 60 pounds to you again…

Love always,

4 Years Later

iknowicandothis: I was shocked when I saw the first picture on the left…It’s working!:D

So today my total was 740 calories, 85g carbs, 60g protein, and 15g of fat :) I know realisticly I should be eating more, but I’m honestly not real hungry, and I really really need to lose this weight fast for summer parties that are coming up. I have to be at 125lbs before I feel like I’m good enough to wear a bikini. That’s almost 20lbs I have to lose ASAP!!! yikes!!!

I did the 100 workout today too! I loved it, I was sweating and felt good about it. The only thing I didn’t like were the leg lifts, I may replace them with something else, like barbell curls to work my arms, because I felt the leg lifts did nothing. Although I may just be really bad at them XD

whoo hoo! Weight-loss feels so good :)

Sunshine…

I went a little overboard today. Over 200 calories past my daily budget. Ugh. I guess I was bound to slip-up sometime. It just sucks because I was doing so well before and now…gahh.

It’s been a very long time since I’ve done a text post.  As Sharon said to me last week “You’ve lost your mojo”

I have to agree.

My life has changed in so many ways in the last month.  I was a grad student living with one of my best friends with two more of them living down the street.  I drove across the country and went on adventures that are way out of my comfort zone.  I left California (after dropping off my roommate) and came back to Massachusetts and move into a one bedroom apartment.  (I would like to break for a moment and say don’t you put “an” in front of words that start with a vowel? It would be an octopus, an octo-mom.  But on an one bedroom apartment is wrong?)  Back on topic.

I started working full time at my internship-turned-contractor job doing tax returns that are beyond my knowledge and coming home so exhausted I just lay in my bed and try to find the energy to cook dinner.

I’m lonely.  I’m tired. I’m just trying to figure this new life out.

So yes, I lost some mojo.

But it’s coming back. Soon.  As soon as I get my credit card so I can earn miles so I can be reunited with Ashley.  

When I go back to school after summer…

I want to see their jealousy.

I want to walk in there and see all people staring at me.

I want them to get compliments on my weight loss.

I want to be skinner than her.

I want to make them feel desperate.

I want to support my followers.

I want to wear my old jeans.

I want to feel healthy and fantastic.

I want to be confident.

I wanna have a reason to go shopping every day.

I want it. Now.

Next Week's Plans

I’m going to be honest and say that when I stayed at my friend’s house the last couple of days I didn’t exercise as much self-control as I could have. I made a lot of bad choices with the excuse of not being at home and not being in control. I had A LOT of sodium, carbs, and a whole lot of fat(I finally had some pizza which is the only thing I literally refuse to eat because I know I’ll pig out…and I pigged out). It wasn’t pretty. My weight went back up by about 4 pounds as expected but like the last time this happened it’ll go back down pretty quickly and I’ll be right back on track in a couple of days(though I really would like to have continued without any setbacks…hopefully I’ll get through the summer without any more). I obviously haven’t learned my lesson with this, though, and I really need to. I won’t always be able to work out two hours a day and I can’t go my entire life without eating out or indulging so I need how to do it healthily. I can’t just let everything go to shit because it’s too hard to say no.

Anyway, I stayed with my cousin last night because I was babysitting her so when I got home I had a KIND protein bar and worked out for an hour on the elliptical. I had some high fiber oatmeal with a glass of soy milk after. I had a cup of coffee as I made dinner which was a couple of bites of turkey breast, sauteed portabello mushrooms with worchestershire sauce, and salad with balsamic vinegar, red peppers, tomato, and feta cheese. A little bit of pineapple was dessert. I worked out for another hour after that.

Would a hedonist diet?

I’ve been shit slack this week. Well let’s be honest here, for the last two weeks.

Carborama.

Gah. Blah. Oh, oops, that ones copywrited.

I’ve had bread, pasta, pizza (gasp). And the evil of all evils, Coke. A cola.

Boo me. I did go for a run Monday, but I doubt that counts now.

Crap. Why’s it so hard? I’ll attempt to stay away from the Duramine next week but I’m making no promises.

Here’s to another weekend. Cheers big ears.

Jx

Hey there, rib cage. It’s been a while. Now, that you came back I will do anything to keep you.

I haven’t done my workout yet :x

There’s still time! If I don’t get it in today, I’ll just count today as my rest day for the week… I’m so sore already. Getting in and out of the car today was painful lol 

I walked around in the mall for hours shopping though… and didn’t buy anything, what a let down!

Went to dinner at Houlian’s with my sister and didn’t partake in the free disco fries… I only ate a max of 350 calories total so I’m still on track for the day as well, proving it’s entirely possible to make smart choices when eating at restaurants.

Real Girl Thinspo. My favorite kind.

This was something i did in OT(occupational therapy) today… i think it actually shows why Ed is so hard to combat…

it is a dialogue between me and my eating disorder:

Alyssa: I want recovery to live my life

Ed: No, you NEED me to survive

A: I need to change my lifestyle

E: You shouldn’t change anything because you’ll just fuck it all up

A: I want to be healthy and happy

E: I can give you that, if only you’d try harder you fat cow

A: I want to not hate my life

E: You should hate your life because you have fucked it up completely

A: I want a successful career

E: I’ll give you that by pushing you to accept nothing less than perfection. No perfection=FAILURE

A: I want a life filled with love and joy

E: You don’t deserve that

A: I am going to change to better myself

E: I will make your life a living hell if you disobey me

A: I want to be content with my life

E: You can be content when you are perfect

A: I want to have fun

E: You don’t deserve that. Everybody thinks you’re fat anyways, the only reason they hang out with you is so that you make them look better by being the fat friend

A: I want to be Ed free

E: You will never be good enough without me, you’re a loser and a failure without me; you will blow up like a balloon and become the fattest and most hated person on earth without me.

Seems irrational right?

But it goes through my head every minute of every day…

And after awhile…

Ed becomes truth…

if you ever wondered what i’m fighting

that’s part of it

So why do I still look exactly the same when I look in the mirror?:( I feel so fat, gross and just plain fucking ugly. Why can’t I see any of this weight come off? I’m a uk size 6/8, but I still LOOK at least a 12/14. Wtf? My mum wants me to go to the doctor, because she’s worried about the way I see myself. But why can’t she see it? I bet she does, really… So why won’t she admit that my stomach is still disgusting? That my thighs are still huge? That everything still jiggles when I move!? Tomorrow I’m going to drink loooads of water and eat ONLY fruit, and hopefully the next day, too. Actually I might try to do that until monday, I think. I’m so sick of catching my reflection and cringing away from it, will this shit ever stop?:/

MEAL PLAN FOR THE WEEK

Breakfast - banana, green tea

Snack (in school) - gumgumgum :)

Lunch - Weight Watchers soup/ravioli, strawberries/grapes/raspberries for dessert

Snack (before working out) - fruits, like an apple

Dinner (after working out) - canned tuna with corn/3 fiber crispbreads with low-fat, low-cal cheese or salami

Snack (late-night, in case) - fruits!

WORKOUT PLAN - MONDAY, TUESDAY, THURSDAY, FRIDAY

*8-Minute Ab and Arm Workouts, once in the morning and once in the afternoon/evening

*1 hour total of walking/jogging on the treadmill

*30 minutes on the stationary bike

*2 rounds of strength training

-> Wednesday is my day-off from the gym! But I will still do the 8-Minute Ab and Arm Workouts twice, once in the morning and once in the evening.

-> On Saturday next week (June 25), I will take a picture wearing the exact outfit I wore in today’s picture and compare. What the scale says isn’t important.

Cait, you have to realize that you cannot afford any more unhealthy eating! I know the only reason you ate unhealthily tonight was because you had no more fruits to snack on, because your lazy butt just slept this afternoon instead of hit the grocery store. It’s your own fault, but tomorrow will be better. You’re going to stick to your plan, grocery shop for fruits and Weight Watchers soup as well. You are going to work out and love it. You will not even THINK about eating anything that is not what you planned. You are slowly getting back on track, and in a strange way, I’m actually proud of you.

almost had to blackmail myself to get on the scale today but SO SO glad i did!!

Don’t you hate it when scales don’t properly function? I stepped on the scale first time and I weighed in at 64.4kg. Then I decided to step on again and I weighed in at 66.8kg… What the hell? Is that even possible?! Which one should I take? 64.4kg of course HAHAHAHA. - Amanda

Lost a pound! That’s 4 in total.

I was hoping for more, but the weekend was a bit bad, wasn’t it? And I’m sure my McDonalds for lunch and my Chinese for dinner didn’t help either!!! I’ve had a bad day today…

Why was it so bad? Well, every Thursday I like a treat after class. Some people have a cream cake, I like junk food. I then had a job interview (and I am now consequently employed woohoo!), and I was out with the twins all afternoon. We didn’t get back in till late, we were all starving (including the girls) so we ordered something in.

What am I going to do about it? Superspeed foods. Hundreds of them! I am going to go out to the shops and grab as much strawberries and baked beans as possible! I am also going to plan my meals better this week. I have noticed that I often forget to have both an A and a B choice so I will fix that in my food plan too! I have a target of 2 pounds next week and I want to smash it! No ferrero roche this week! No picking at the toffees!

I also feel that my lack of exercise is an issue. I know I’ve got a cracked vertebrae but I feel it will really speed up my weight loss if I get off my fat backside! I am usually running around after the twins but it is obviously not enough. I have (or should I say: Morag has) a wii fit that has never been used. Perhaps it’s time it came out the box…

Aims for Tomorrow:

Day 1: Starting Weight/Measurements

See ya later level 1 of the 30 day shred; it’s been nice knowing ya. I want to measure again just because the level is over but realistically it’s been 3 days and I’m not doing that shit. Today was the first day I actually did it with real weights because I finally had time to go and get some last night………haha the books I was using were probably only 1.5 pounds (I say this after working out today). I bought 3 pound weights because I knew 5 would be too much right now. I can definitely feel it in my arms ahah. I had no idea the books were so light. At least I can say Harry Potter helped me get thin ;)

One thing I will say is that I wish there was a timer or something on the video just so you knew there was only 10 seconds left of something. I listen to music and turn down the volume of the instructions usually but I keep it loud enough so I can still hear it. Every once in awhile I here Jillian say “just a few more” and it is much more than a few. ahah it’s just deceiving and I like to know what’s going on justttt sayin.

Anyway food has been good today. I have some tofu marinating right now. I think I’ll back some and have it with stir fry and tomorrow I’ll use the rest for veggie tacos.

Ps. I don’t know about you guys but I like sour cream soo instead of using that on my tacos I usually use a lil low fat ranch. TAS-ty.  hahah that’s my suggestion for the day.

Now I’m going to do an inner thigh workout followed by homework forever. sigh.

UK8/US4 to a UK4/US0

Zero calorie chewing gum = A binging life saver!

Breakfast this morning. Half a bagel with low calorie light cream cheese and one scrambled egg White

I was at 13 years old about 265 pounds. I currently weigh: 175 

Shit son, sometimes I even forget how much that is.

Another one of my favorite diet foods. I am eating these instead of any other noodles. Only 18 calories for an entire package of them. I am looking for some good sauce recipes (low calorie ones). Let me know if you have one :) 

breakfast: 10g apple (4.5 calories) 10g kiwi (3.7 calories) tsp yogurt (5 calories) 5 oats (1 calories)

lunch: broccoli (10 calories) pepper (10 calories) 1 tomato (20 calories)

supper: chedder thing (20) slice of apple (3)

total for today: 4.5+3.7+5+1+10+10+20+20+3= 77.2

walked for like 10 minutes, 100 sit ups done.

MUST RUN TOMORROOOWWWWWWW

Swim lesson time! I love giving lessons because the kids are great and I burn over 700 calories! After I'm making a fantastic grilled Mediterranean couscous dish, 200 calories 3.5 fat, 10 protein! :D

I eat when I have to and when I’m hungry, which is a rare occasion as of late.

I’m about 80% sure we’re going out to eat on Sunday for father’s day so that will be my first big meal in about a week (don pablos from monday)

I’m not having a big meal until then.

As of May 30:

195 pounds

Right Arm: 14 1/2 inches

Bust: 43 inches

Chest: 35 3/4 inches

Waist: 35 inches

Hips: 44 inches

Right Thigh: 27 1/4 inches

Right Calf: 16 1/4 inches

sooo sweaty.

Lunch time!!!! Yummy :)

Any suggestions?

Starting: 252

Last Week: 248.5

This Week: 247.5

I’ll take it! It’s been an icky week.

For my peanut butter and jelly sandwich I have been using Buddy Fruits strawberry apple for my jelly! It tastes really good, it is not too thick, and the entire pouch is just 60 calories!!!! Of course I do not use the whole thing for one sandwich so really it is roughly 15 calories per sandwich!!! Think about it… 1-2 tbsp. Regular jelly is 50 calories and this whole entire pouch is just 60!!

every. single. day.

I’ve calculated all of my calories for the day, and I can easily have pancakes, a piece of non-buttered toast, a Morningstar maple sausage patty, and 2 Morningstar Bacon strips. I love breakfast for dinner!! (Morningstar is an all-vegetarian brand, btw).

And wanna hear the best part? I also have room for an oreo. That’s right- I’m gonna put oreo bits in my pancakes.

I’m so excited for dinner that I’m counting down the hours I have left: 3.5

2 slices of Pepperidge Farms Light Style soft wheat bread is just 90 calories!!!

sooo sweaty.

walked dogs at the animal shelter for an hour this morning.
then did insanity interval training.

me so tired!

time to find some food to eat

girls night tonight! may contain pizza and ice cream

Weight Loss from Books!

So, these past few days I was away from home (visiting Kay, attending a wedding, etc). I decided that it would be difficult to count calories and difficult to control what kinds of things I would be eating.

As a result, I stopped counting and just tried to listen to what my body was saying.

I ate a cupcake, I had pizza and fries, and more. I was not as restrictive and it paid off!!!

I think often I give my self a decent amount of set calories (1200-1500), buuuuut I think counting causes me to focus to much on weight loss and not on enjoying the food or just living a healthy lifestyle. As a result, even though I was eating a healthy amount of calories, I still felt restricted by what kinds of foods I could eat and how much of them as well. So, these past few days, if I was hungry I ate, if I wasn’t I didn’t.

I weighed in and voila 148 pounds :)

(and with 2 weeks till the beach, so when I keep this up I could reach 145 or less!)

So, I plan to continue eating intuitively as best I can, unless I hit a plateau or something, then I will re-evaluate…but I think what is wonderful about this is that it is teaching me to listen to my body and how to eat in a way that is maintainable!

All you guys who’ve been complaining about it, I feel your pain. I really do.

I’ve been a bit worried about how far I can run and I’ll be able to do the full 5k. I realised I’ve been including my 5 minute warm up walk in my timings. So today I did my 5 minute warm up and then I ran for an extra 40 minutes on top of that. 40 minutes!

Go me!

It’s not almost 7:30 pm. I had my meal exactly 12 hours ago. I’m stopping, I’m making myself something healthy to eat now. I hate feeling weak because I’m restricting myself.

I ran last night!  For the first time in, like, a month.  I ran close to 1.5 miles, maybe 1.2 miles.  At any rate, I ran! It was almost easy, too, which freaked me out a little bit.  I wasn’t timing myself too seriously, but I knew that for having run as far as I had at that particular point, I should have been breathing a little heavier.  It was probably because I took my asthma meds prior to running (the asthma meds I’ve been without for nearly as long as I haven’t been running. Connection, maybe?!).  Maybe it’s because I don’t weigh as much as I did when I was running before.  I don’t know how I did it, but I shed another 5-8 pounds (depending on the scale, of course).  Probably has to do with me participating in this “No Junk Food for the Month of June” challenge on Facebook.  It’s done me some good; I can’t even fathom eating a bag of chips or anything without true nutritional value.  Even now when I am DEAD BROKE, a bag of chips would be cheap and quick and filling for a time.  But, a banana from the fruit guy is the same amount of change, and even more filling and nutritious.  I guess this is what boyfriend was always talking about when he’d say, “Eat real food.”  Had to figure it out the hard way. 

Yeah, so I ran last night, and I’ll probably do so again tonight or tomorrow morning.

That’s all.

serendipitybabyy said: - We probably know more about the scientific weight loss aspects than any normal person would.

THIS IS SO TRUE. I think that’s one of the biggest myths about those with eating disorders- that our actions are due to ignorance about nutrition. I’ve read both diet books and medical textbooks extensively in an attempt to known as much possible about weight loss. I also had a nutritionist after I was diagnosed last year, so I know how I’m affecting my body.

So, I haven’t done a GPOYW or a progress picture in a while, it took me a couple of pages on my blog even to find a recent picture.

ANYWAY, yesterday I was (and still am) running low on clothes, so I decided to just grab this gray shirt that I normally don’t wear because it’s a little too tight and too short. Well, I pulled it on and holy baggy-ness batman! This is NOT the same shirt I used to wear!

Let us all ignore my insane face in the first picture. I know they are taken at different angles, but you can even see how much baggier the shirt is on my now. Not to mention how much smaller my upper arms look and can I mention that my boobs look a lot bigger too (you can’t realllly tell that in this picture thought….)? tmi? AND LOOK AT MY FINGERS! They are soooo much less sausagey now! HURRAH!

Could I be dorkier though? No? I didn’t think so….

Oh my gosh I hurt. Such a good day at the gym. 

First I walked for like 10 minutes on the treadmill. I almost forgot to stop, since I was just warming up. My body was ready to keep going! 

Then I did the whole line of machines, 20 reps on each. I did as much weight as I could, which was 50 or 70 on the leg machines and 20 or 30 on the arm ones. 

After that, I tried the elliptical again. It kicked my ass, seriously! I loved it. 

According to my Lose It! App, I burned 500 calories today. I definitely feel like it. I love the feeling of pushing myself just the right amount! 

So one suggests that weight loss is specific to blood type and the other notes that weight loss is possible with the elimination of grains. If I follow both books, I need to eliminate my grains that I love so much! 

Anyone think there’s any truth to these statements in Dr Peter J.D’Adamo’s Eat Right 4 Your Type& Gary Taubes’ Why We Get Fat and What To Do About It?

Need a lot more improvement, but i’m not going to get too...

I’ve lost 1 pound in 2 friggin dayyyyysss ! And just come back from a 2 mile run baby !

Bob Harper’s Fitness Tip to Stay Motivated #1: Trust the Process 

• “Your body has changed from exercising and eating well, so you know the program works,” says Harper. “Don’t start questioning it or give up because you’ve stopped seeing noticeable progress. If you’re doing everything right, your body just has to go through an adjustment period.”

Bob Harper’s Fitness Tip to Stay Motivated #2: Try Not to Obsess

• “Don’t focus on the 10, 20, or 50 pounds you’re still hoping to lose,” says Harper. “That’s too daunting. Take it day by day with small goals. When you get up, think, ‘Okay, I have to do my cardio workout and I’m going to make smart choices at lunch.’ Check your healthy habits on your to-do list.”

Bob Harper’s Fitness Tip to Stay Motivated #3: Let Your Body Rest

• “You’ve been pushing yourself for a couple of months now. If you’re feeling worn out, take a day off, then return to your routine the next day,” suggests Harper. “The workouts are designed to break down your muscles so they get stronger, but they won’t if you don’t give them time to recover.”

Bob Harper’s Fitness Tip to Stay Motivated #4: Don’t Get Comfortable

• If you keep doing a particular workout that you love—maybe 45 minutes on the elliptical—stop! “Instead, slash the time in half and jack up the intensity,” says Harper. “Your muscles will think, ‘What the heck is going on?’ and that’s exactly what will get you over the hump.”

Bob Harper’s Fitness Tip to Stay Motivated #5: Keep Reading SHAPE!

• “Every month it’s filled with ways to change up your workout and stay inspired. Use them!” says Harper. “I also recommend taking group fitness classes, where you’re surrounded by likeminded people who enjoy working out. They’re fantastic motivation.”

I was feeling a bit down about my lack of loss for the last 2 days so I used a photo I took before my diet started (about 2 weeks before) and one I took 2 days ago!

Be prepared for sudden changes in your meal plan. For example, my uncle handed me a take out menu and told me to pick out lunch. So instead of a peanut butter sandwich and Dr. Pepper, I’m going to have a small bacon and mozzarella calzone and water. I’ll just walk a little bit further or dance a little bit longer than I originally planned.

oatmeal ( delicious with skim milk )

Whole egg ( with the yolk of course )

berries ( many kinds )

avocado

skim milk ( with fiber like tropicana slim milk )

I spent my grocery money for the week on a silk romper so I’m having coffee and toast as my only meal of the day

it’s cost-effective plus helps with weight loss!

You know how people say “from head to toe”

no exaggerating right now. Everything from my head to my toes hurt! haha and the fact that my toes hurt surprises the hell out of me.

I can’t really complain though. I got most of my room moved in and unpacked AND can easily count it as my workout until I can get my treadmill back up and running.

OMG! I forgot my workout DVD at my dads house! Guess I gotta make another trip haha. Not that I’m planning on doing a workout in this state or anything lol.

Chocolate for breakfast?  YES!!!!  This muffin is AMAZING and only 100 calories!!!  I usually eat it with a cup of fruit for breakfast on the mornings I wake up craving chocolate!!!  You feel like your cheating, but you are totally not!!!  There are many different flavors to choose from on their website (which you can view by clicking on the picture).  The only thing that is annoying is that they only sell standard flavors in stores (chocolate, corn, banana nut), if you want the more advanced flavors (chocolate chip mint, chocolate peanut butter, etc.) you need to order them off line!!  This brand also sells cake mix, muffintops, brownies, and cakes!!!!!  I am in love with these things!!!!!!!! TRY THEM :)

Need a lot more improvement, but i’m not going to get too down on myself.

Tomorrow is a very very exciting day!

And now I’m off to work at my grandma’s house from 11 to 4.

Apparently she wants me to drive her to Stop & Shop so she can get groceries, which means she’ll want to go through the Wendy’s drive-thru for lunch. I need to figure out if I can afford to get the chicken nuggets there or if I should stick strictly to the Lean Cuisine I’ve been eating the past few weeks.

When I was younger, I used to never care about my weight. Now, it’s everything to me.

What food is your weakness?

Anything drizzled or covered in chocolate.

Wasn’t TUMBLR friendly. lol

Lunch was a chicken & mushroom pasta n sauce made up with water (free) mixed with a full tin of mushrooms (superfree) & a pint of squash (free.

Kitkat as usual is 5.5syns.

Gonna get home & do my biggest loser workout! Hopefully will be greeting Bob & Jillian like old friends. I won’t want anything too heavy after that so I’m going to oven cook 2 of my garlic & chilli sausages (syn free from Joe’s Sausages our consultant makes a group order every week) and chop them up into a 2 egg omelette (free).

Sorted!

BY THE WAY, some creeper who apparently lives across from the gym congratulated me on how often I’ve been going there :D

Apparently he can see me exercising everyday from his window that faces the gym o.O

Scale came in yesterday and I weighed myself this morning: 146 lbs. That means I’ve lost 6 lbs since my starting weight of 152 lbs. 

I’m not going to lie I’m feeling a little bit disappointed… During the school year I usually weight 147 lbs. I gained 5 lbs when I went home this semester between my brother’s graduation celebrations, my going away celebrations, etc, etc. I feel like I’m just back to the weight I usually am. There was even a point this spring where I was down to 143 lbs. I feel like I won’t be breaking even until I’m back down to 143. There’s no reason I should have put that 10 lbs back on. I never want to put that weight back on again.

Either way… before I got on the scale I was feeling awesome about my figure. I’ve been going to the gym a lot. I haven’t lost 20 lbs over night and I need to understand that is healthy. I want to loss the weight healthy with an exercise program I can keep up with when I go back to school. An hour of gym a day isn’t unreasonable to keep up with during the semester.

I weighed myself before I went to the gym today and after some working out I feel better :D I’m going to keep this up!

Maybe I haven’t lost so much because all the fat has been turning into heavier muscle at the gym :P

even though i only had it for a week and a half, i guess it was a pretty easy habit to get into. :P

i ordered some new ones last night. three different cheap ones. not sure which kind works best for me, and they were seriously around $2 a piece+shipping so it’s not like i have much to lose if any of them break. haha. if all three of them break…well then…i’ll have to think about getting a fancy expensive one i guess. :P

anyway, i think all of them are coming in from out of the country so it’s going to be a while until i get them. ah well, at least we’re getting the treadmill this weekend. 

Until then, think I’m just going to do lots of walking. 

The reason that got me into weight loss this time around was honestly… my boyfriend. I think that’s a great reason beside being healthy. I want to enjoy being healthy with someone I love.

I want to enjoy his company in more ways than just sitting around watching movies but being fit enough to go hiking and enjoy the beautiful world with him and others.

In light of that…

Goal setting:

By the end of the summer I want to…

1. Overhead Press: 50 lbs. This is important to me because I’m so short I need to be able to lift things that are over my head :P Seriously…
2. Chest Press: 100 lbs. I’m already at 62.5!
3. Row: 100 lbs. It seems to keep up with the chest press.
4. Leg Press: 200 lbs.

I don’t think these goals are crazy. I’ll work at them everyday :)

Are you vegan or vegetarian? If so, has this helped you lose weight? If not, would you ever consider turning vegan or vegetarian?

I went vegetarian for like a month and I did lose a lot of weight, but I got sick because I wasn’t doing the whole vegetarian thing right. I eat meat now, but I eat it a lot less frequently. I wouldn’t go veggie again just because I work out so much and I need meat as a source of protein, but I do choose fish or poultry a lot now.

My boyfriend is coming over to see me! We’ve been apart for 5 weeks so it will be so good to be back together, he is only staying Friday - Monday so we don’t have long, but it will be so nice, I keep thinking about it and getting butterflies! SO EXCITED!!! I’m going to pick him up from the airport at 11am!

I need to start planning things to do with him, on Saturday we are going to watch my Dad do a triathlon, the sea swimming element of it is around a big rock with a 1000+ year old castle perched on top of it so that will be all pretty and nice. I want to go for a cycle together as well (exercise AND couple time, excellent!) and just chill and do nice things together.

After he goes on Monday though we won’t see each other for another 5 or 6 weeks :-(

OH and that was what I came on here to ask you all, we are going out for a meal together tomorrow night to my local Indian restaurant, I don’t really know what the best thing to have weight-loss-wise would be, obviously I want to stay away from things like fried rice, naan, and creamy curries like korma and tikka masala, so what would you suggest? I was thinking I’d get tandoori chicken or chicken shashlik and then steal literally 2 spoon fulls of my boyfriend’s boiled rice (the portions are HUGE). What do you think? Does that sound sensible? What do you normally order at an Indian if you’re watching your weight?

Goals:

6.16.2011

• Walk 3.5 miles
• Make a new smoothie
• Read you crazy woman
• Have a fantastic Curves workout
• Attempt yoga again

Aaand… I can’t think of anything else. But I am sure there is more that I need to do!

6.15.2011

•  Make it home in time to walk before sunset (Walk 3.5 miles)
• Make snacks for apartment hunting in the morning
• Eat healthy while away from home

I ate relatively well while looking for apartments (and I found two that I love!). I didn’t need that small french fry… but oh well. It happened. I’m bummed I didn’t make it home to walk. I made a pathetic attempt at yoga to at least burn some pitiful amount of calories. It was truly pitiful… Extremely so. Thank god everyone was asleep.

I need to be asleep. I need to stop staying up so late. I have a sneaking suspicion that going to sleep earlier will help with this weight loss thing. What is going to make me go to sleep? I NEED TO. I can’t be awake when The Mighty Boosh is on anymore.

…because I’m doing it the healthy way.

…because I’m doing it the healthy way.