i need a uk ana texting buddy! i’m 5’5, 169 lb but working on it. my number is...

Weigh-in #26
Week 26
Start (old scales) - 175lbs
Start (new scales) - 169.5lbs
Last - 164.6lbs
Current - 163.2lbs
Loss - 1.4 lbs
New Scale Total Loss - 6.3lbs
Total Loss So Far - 14.3lbs
Pounds Until Halfway Point - 4.45lbs

so, for tomorrow

““What positive things have you said to yourself today? Acknowledge your greatness.””

- Chalene Johnson

I need to have a game plan for this week!

Oatmeal & bananas for breakfast every day!
Veggies & chicken for lunch every day!
10+ glasses of water every day!
Start & end the day with green tea.

Exercise (next two weeks):
Gym in morning, pool at lunch, walk in evening - Mon
Gym in morning, walk or pool at lunch - Tues
Gym in morning, walk to carnival at night - Weds
Walk -Thurs
Walk - Fri
Hardcore gym session (2-3 hours) - Sat
Longggg walk - Sun
Workout vid - Mon
Walk - Tues
Rest - Weds
Gym in morning, pool at lunch, walk in evening - Thurs
Gym & walk - Fri
Hardcore gym session - Sat
Rest - Sun

I miss being in the 170s. I will get there this week. And I’ll be under 175 by July 10th’s weigh-in. :) 

I think the universal answer to this is yes. Regardless of your size, girls make weight comments at all times. I do not think this is  an issue exclusively reserved to girls who are overweight.

I myself have dealt with the cruel onslaught of negative comments; I’ve been told I’m fat by people who I knew well, and by strangers on the street. One is not worse than the other, really.

I just hope that people realize this problem exists for all girls of all sizes. I’ve known gorgeous and impossibly thin girls who are self conscious of themselves because people make comments assuming they have eating disorders, when they don’t.

People should really stop using weight as the end-all for insults. If you really don’t like a person, making a comment about their lack of intelligence is a lot more damaging than making one about their appearance. I mean, newsflash - fat people know they are fat. So pointing it out doesn’t really do anything for you. 

Our society has a sick obsession with appearances and I for one am done with it. I will, to the best of my ability, try to tune out any negative comments, and try and stay in the positive, always.

I’m here for anyone who needs a reminder that no one has the right to make you feel inferior.

xoxo

I barely ate a thing. About 180 calories. Why do I feel so proud?

“HAVE YOU GAINED WEIGHT?”

- i want to die whenever i hear this question. it seems i’ve heard it so often lately. starve starve starve.Just spent all night reading the nutrition information on this website. AMAZING!

Today, ladies and gentlemen, makes a year on my Natural Hair journey. Time went by quickly. I’m gonna give ya’ll pics and lessons learned, but right now it is a crunchy dry mess from a late night, all day at work schedule.

Also, I weighed in today… I’m down to 192 point something pounds! woot woot! That’s down 9 point something pounds from where I began! #TeamFineinaMinute

Things I realized today:

• Every Sunday with my family reminds me why I came home.
• Sometimes people with start to not like you suddenly, all because they want something you have that you don’t even understand why they want it.
• For all of my moments of self-esteem weakness, my skin is indeed getting tougher. It does hurts to be rejected/denied, but I’m realizing that I’m not a “one-size-fits-all” type of girl. And I’m becoming okay with that.
• I love Kevin Hart
• Zumba is my workout utopia!

I’ll be back tomorrow ya’ll!

i drank two of these today. :)

i train bi’s, tri’s, chest, & abs. it will be my heavy weight day. ill be using weights around 15-20 pounds, as well as 20-35 pounds - it all depends on the move im doing. ill also complete 4 sets (one warm up set, and three hard sets). here is what im going to do:

curls 
push ups
v-ups
kickbacks
cable crossovers
side to sides
barbell curls
bench press
plank
dips
side to sides
cable curls
cable crossovers
tricep pulldowns

also, i will be doing slow & steady cardio. probably jogging or stair stepping for half an hour to 45 minutes.  

ill let you know how it goes.

There’s things that keep popping up in my dash, y’know? Things i don’t enjoy!Let...

Lots of Uni work to do today so not completely focused on my goals :/

I went way over on carbs I think :(

Food

Daily Milk 3

B. Beans 4

   Brown Toast 4

   Scrambled eggs 4

D. Haddock 2

   Potatoes 2

  Vegetables 0

  Rice 8

Snacks

Shredded wheat 4

Fruit salad and natural yogurt 1

Slice of Brown Bread 2

Slice of chicken 1

Total 35

Exercise

Day 7 of the 30 Day Shred

Moo

:)

Sweats for t-t-t-todayyyyyyy!!

Body Attack was a KILLER! I think that I work harder when the class has more people (i.e. not SO many people that I’m bumping into broads left and right, but enough that I wanna show off). And considering the routine was almost the same as yesterday, I was pretty accustomed to the moves and could just work it.

Today, for dinner, we’re making a BBQ chicken pizza!!  Whole wheat dough, BBQ sauce, baked chicken, and 2% fat cheddah!  Mmmm.  Can’t wait to try it.

ALSO: weighed myself today and was 174, 2 lbs down since my initial heart attack of a weigh in yesterday/Wednesday so I feel like that’s at least reasonable.

Things are looking up, with no major MEAL related events this weekend (when things revolve around eating, I tend to join in on those things…)

Tomorrow: Farmer’s market early in the AM, pancake saturday, and BodyJam followed by the POOL! Glorious.

From 325lbs (5/4/07) to 187 (6/3/11).  Still 20% body fat.  BUT  Traps showing up nicely.  Same with shoulders.  But my head looks huge in this picture, no?

 I won’t be able to finish these 30 days because I’ll be in Korea in 20 days, so I’m going to cheat and answer some questions ahead of time.

Day 01 - Your stats

Day 02 - How tall are you? Do you like your height?

Day 03 - A picture of your fitspiration. What features do you like about this person? 

Day 04 - Your greatest fears about weight loss.

Day 05 - Why do you really want to lose this weight? Are you doing it for you?

Day 06 - Do you binge? If so, explain why you think you do.

Day 07 - Do your friends and family know you’re trying to lose weight? Do they support you? 

Day 08 - Your workout routine.

Day 09 - Did people ever make comments about your weight in a negative way?

Day 10 - What was the hardest thing you gave up during your weight loss journey?

Day 11 - Your favorite fitspo blog and why?

Day 12 - What food plan do you normally follow each day?

Day 13 - Are you losing weight in a healthy or unhealthy way?

Day 14 - What is your ultimate goal weight/look?

Day 15 - Are you vegan or vegetarian? If so, has this helped you lose weight? If not, would you ever consider turning vegan or vegetarian?

Day 16 - When did you first decide to lose weight?

Day 17 - What is your favourite treat meal?

Day 18 - What food is your weakness?

Day 19 - When is your favourite body part to work on? Why?

Day 20 - What is your favourite form of cardio?

Day 21 - What is your favourite resource for healthy living info?

Day 22 - Quick! What are the 5 things you like best about yourself?

Day 23 - Did the media play a role in your wanting to lose weight?

Day 24 - When did you first notice your hard work paying off?

Day 25- When you reach your goals, what do you plan on doing to maintain your results?

Day 26 - What excites you most about reaching your goals?

Day 27 - How do you stay on track in tempting situations? (e.g. BBQs, Birthday parties, out with friends, etc.)

Day 28 - Have you had any setbacks you’ve had to overcome? How did you do it?

Day 29 - Your definition of beauty.

Day 30 - 10 facts about you! And now, what are your stats?

Tonight Im doing my Coach plan run from Nike+

so I only have to do .64 miles. which is cool cause my feet really hurt.

I have to run for 1:00 and then walk for 5:00, relatively easy.  Im on the Walk to Run program so, 

and then after I’ll probably do some Yoga err something./

i wanted to get up and run a mile before getting in the pool, but my feet were still sore from running the past few days (high arches are a bummer), so i took a short nap before getting in the pool and swimming 100 laps. i’m so tired, like i feel like i’m about to fall asleep typing this, but it felt absolutely amazing. 

afterwards i was starving, so despite my binge earlier i made myself a bowl of whole grain wheat penne pasta. i normally just kind of estimate what i put in, but i actually measured out everything this time. i’ve been really overestimating the amount of pasta i eat. i measured out 1 cup, like i figured i normally eat, but it turned out to make a HUGE bowl. and i always thought i used a full cup of sauce, but 1/2 a cup was plenty, even with the extra pasta. the bread was more calories than i thought though (150 calories for a medium sized piece of french bread, extra 30 for the tsp of butter…so worth it though). so dinner ended up being 517 calories. oh well. 

food journal:

breakfast- whole wheat bagel with ~1 tbs butter (170 calories…i remembered the calories for butter wrong. whoops.)

lunch- pb&j on whole wheat (270 calories)

snack- fudge (400 calories), 2 pieces of taffy and a few tortilla chips (100 calories)

dinner- whole grain wheat penne pasta with mushroom red sauce and french bread (517 calories)

desert- skinny cow ice cream sandwich (140 calories)

total- 1,597 

exercise journal-

swimming (100 laps-45 minutes)

yikes. weighing in tomorrow, let’s hope it goes well. if not i’ll have to stick to a strict 1300 calorie a day food plan…

I’m 5’3” and I’m fine with my height. I wouldn’t complain if I was an inch taller, but I’m really cool with what my height is right now because when I wear heels, I look about 125908125 feet tall.

That’s a lie, but heels > no heels but I’m still a good height.

…was a bad day. I only made it to the gym for half an hour and totally binged after dinner…like 500 calories worth. I don’t feel too bad because I did work my ass off this week, but the thing is I’ll be away all next week and my routine will be all messed up!! Just need to work out a little extra tomorrow and try to stay on track the rest of the weekend. I need a hug.

thepictureofhealth replied to your post:CalorieKing is telling me to lower my intake to 1230 calories per day.

How many do you eat now? 1230 isn’t that ridiculous. And your body can still function on that if you keep it as your net calories.

I was eating 1250 calories but the problem is I never have that as my net calories. I need to start eating back my exercise calories. I used to do it, then I stopped and had great results but now it’s slowed down heaps and I need to fuel my body. I’m more active than “light” but less than “moderate” thanks to my job. I’ll go back through my study notes today and work out my BMR and go from that. I think I can trust my own career change over a website that doesn’t give inbetween options.

jess-nelsonreblogged your post:CalorieKing is telling me to lower my intake to 1230 calories per day.

That’s the calorie intake…by daily…It’s not that bad if you eat light frequent meals.

No, it’s not bad but my problem as I mentioned above is that I don’t tend to eat back my exercise calories. I think 1230 is too low for me, because I’m more active than CalorieKing says I am because they don’t have an “inbetween” option from light to moderate like it does when you calculate your BMR. So I’ll be doing that today and working out my calorie needs for myself.

What good is learning this stuff to become a Personal Trainer if I don’t practice what I preach? I need to work these things out for myself before I can work them out for anyone else.

There’s things that keep popping up in my dash, y’know? Things i don’t enjoy!

Let me post the picture and i’ll explain why it pissed me off.

Now, before i begin, i am NOT promoting anorexia or bullimia.

Anyway.

You guys do realize that not all insanely skinny girls are Anorexic, right? There are some with extremely high metabolisms who cannot control how skinny they are. Now before you go off saying, “Well there’s a difference from someone with a high metabolism and someone who is Anorexic and a bag of bones,” I’d like to dissagree.
My stepmother has a very high metabolism and is just as skinny as that girl on the right. She eats A LOT but never gains a pound. Because of people saying things like that picture above she has a low self esteem. She tells me every day that she hates being this skinny and wishes she could gain some weight. People approach her and tell her that ‘there’s help out there’ so many times, and it makes her feel horrible. She feels disgusting. She hates it. But she can’t control it. How do you think it makes her feel when people say things like this? It’s horrible.

Why is it that when you call a fat girl ‘gross’ everyone hates you and calls you a monster, but when someone walks up to a skinny girl and tell her to eat a burger, everyone praises you and agrees? Double standard much?

Not all skinny girls want to be that skinny. Many can’t control it. But yes, there are girls who are anorexic and bullimic as well.

But just as there are issues with weight in America about how so many are overweight and unhealthy, there are girls who feel so horrible about theirselves that they actually stop eating and lose mad amounts of weight. To me it goes hand in hand - they are both eating disorders. Why should a girl with such a low self esteem that they are actually putting their life at risk get so much hate? It’s not going to make them eat, let’s face it. It’s going to lower their self esteem even more. Instead you need to offer them advice, talk to them, and help them seek professional guidence or they will die.

Same with overweight individuals, they need professional help, you can’t tell them to go eat a salad.

So why are overweight individuals easily sympathized with while Skinny girls are treated like demons? Like its their fault and they oughtta be ashamed, when its also the overweight individual’s fault for being bigger?

It’s ridiculous.

So i’d be really interested to hear your opinion on this matter, but please refrain from insults or i will not answer you. I want an intelligent conversation, not a fighting match, because i wont deal with it.

Again, i am not promoting Anorexia/Bullimia no more than i am promoting overeating. I’m simply trying to have my say on the matter. They are both disorders that should BOTH be sympathized with instead of ridiculed.

Thank you.

after today I only have two days left on the HSGD.

This is the only sweet things I’ve had all day. Leave me be. Me and my brownie want to make sweet love.  -__-

collarbones for mondays thinspiration 

really fucking sucks.

I would probably go more often if there was nobody there to see me be fat, or make me feel more self-conscious than I do normally. And the worse part is that my gym is part of a swim club, so I get to see all these perfect thin girls tanning/swimming while I bust my ass in the gym… It should be motivating, but it just makes me even more depressed.

If you want to read my progress blog, please message me for the password! I recently made it password protected but just ask for the magic word. ;)

Wow. A year. It’s been a year of this. I’m proud. And I can’t say November until now has seen much in the way of results, but it means I can maintain at least, which I was never really able to do before.

The minus 3 had to be because I was bloated last week, so that makes me feel very, very good!

But now I want to push myself. I find that although nearly 17 pounds lighter, I’m disgusted by myself in pictures. I not only find myself to be larger than what I see in the mirror, but I have a double chin and my face just looks ugly, old and gross to me.

It’s my motivation to become re-dedicated again this summer, because I’m just not okay with the weight I am. This used to be my heavy weight so I’m trying to remember that.

Ask if you want the password. 

I admit it…I’m addicted to carbs, and that’s no way to lose weight! I realize I need much more protein in my diet (especially if I want to see results from P90X!) but I’m having trouble, because I’m a vegetarian! any suggestions?

maybe I’ll start it over again.

yep sounds good to me

wahhhhh

It’s Friday - which means I got on the scale this morning….

Progress: -24.4 lbs

To Goal: -20.6 lbs

Days In: 228

Days Until my 30th Birthday: 311

I lost 1.4 pounds this week

In the last TWO weeks - I’ve lost 2.6 lbs

Before tri workouts started - I’d drop an average of -.75/week (1.5 lbs every 2 weeks)

Which means - I’m losing ~75% more weight because of the tri training - that’s HUGE

It might just be an adjustment - and the weight loss may slow again, but for today… I’m a happy girl!!!

Just checked in for some lovely thinspiration. Now I’m going for my MWF run! Wish me luck!

How is everyone else doing?

I managed 5 morning runs this week! Five! To total 23 km. I plan on covering another 5k tomorrow then giving myself a rest day on Sunday aka fathers day and maybe go for a swim instead. Thanks mom for waking me up every morning at 640!

Photo

yay for trying on old jeans :-)

had 30 cals today and going out now with friends to avoid eating! bye xx

I’m now 141lbs :’)

1 more pound and I’m at my 1st goal weight!

how can being thin be more important than my parents. when did i become so disgustingly self centered?

Going a little easier on myself today since I haven’t had a real rest day in 2 weeks.  Just...

Tomorrow I am going for a run. All my organised sports have finished… so it’s time to do something I’ve always hated and run on my own.

Weight: 156.6

The boyfriend and I woke up this morning, resistant to going to work, but in a good mood with energy nonetheless. I will be fasting again today, I’m hoping it will go better than yesterday, since I do have a shorter day at work today. I may even get a walk in after work, but who knows since I have a shit ton to do before I leave town for the weekend. I still need to get some money out of the bank for bills and start shopping for fathers day.

I will probably do a small workout at home before I head off to work, I need to do whatever I can today since I will be at my boyfriends for the rest of the weekend. I know fasting Saturday and Sunday will not be entirely possible. So I plan to pack up some of my own food, some vegetables and fruit to bring over, so that he knows that I’m eating something at least and doesn’t force me to go out for dinner.

It’s 3 a.m. Going to the beach at 11a.m. If I don’t fall asleep soon, I’m gonna be napping on my beach towel all afternoon! Not ready for this, but compared to the last time I was there, I am noticeably improved so I’m not gonna fret. Confidence (even forced) makes you more attractive. And I got numerous comments today from people I hadn’t seen in awhile that said I looked skinny! Yay!

300 calories today. Goal for tomorrow—> keep calories under 450, go to gym and do workout DVD at home, and drink more water. Easy.

Send here or to my ask box which is even better…..

long overdue goal weight/progress pictures. second goal weight was actually 275, but i am now 273. 75 pounds of healthy weight loss.

slloooowwwlllyy

Do skinny girls make more money?

While it should not make any sense at all, the sad reality is that no only do thin girls easily find relatively good jobs, they also make at least $22,000 more each year.  In a study published in the Journal of Applied Psychology, overweight or obese women make even less than a woman of average weight.  If you are not mad yet, listen to this one, for guys it makes no difference what their weight is.  Actually, most of my middle aged bosses are pot bellied slobs.

Day One- Your stats

Age: 24

Height: 6’0”

Weight: 177lbs

Size: UK 14-16 (bottoms) and 14 (tops)

Day Two- How tall are you? Do you like your height?
Day Three- A picture of your thinsperation. What features do you like about this person?
Day Four- Your greatest fears about weight loss.
Day Five- Why do you really want to lose this weight? Are you doing it for you?
Day Six- Do you binge? If so, explain why you think you do.
Day Seven- Do your parents know you’re trying to lose weight? Do they care? 
Day Eight- Your workout routine.
Day Nine- Did people ever make comments about your weight in a negative way?
Day Ten- What was the hardest thing you gave up during this “weight loss.”
Day Eleven- Your favorite thinspo blog and why!
Day Twelve- What do you normally eat?
Day Thirteen- Are you losing weight in a healthy or unhealthy way?
Day fourteen- What’s your UGW? When you expect to reach it?
Day Fifteen- Are you vegan or vegetarian? If so, has this helped you lose weight? If not, would you ever consider turning vegan or vegetarian?
Day Sixteen- When did you first decide to lose weight?
Day Seventeen- Do you have an eating disorder?
Day Eighteen- What food is your weakness?
Day Nineteen- When is the last time you ate fast food?
Day Twenty- Favorite diet?
Day Twenty-One- What are your clothing sizes?
Day Twenty-Two- What was your lowest weight? How and why did you gain?
Day Twenty-Three- Did the media play a role in your wanting to lose weight?
Day Twenty-Four- How do you feel about the terms pro-ana/pro-mia
Day Twenty-Five- Have you ever purged? If you have describe your first experience. 
Day Twenty-Six- What excites you most about reaching your ugw?
Day Twenty-Seven- How do you deal with being around food?
Day Twenty-Eight- Do you want that “gap” between your legs? Why?
Day Twenty-Nine- Your definition of beauty.
Day Thirty-  10 facts about you! And now, what are your stats?

Gotta get my wedding ring sized down and some links taken out of my watch! Nice problems to have.

DON’T EVER WORK OUT IF YOU HAVE NOT EATEN ALL DAY!!!!!!

I hadn’t eaten all day but I worked out anyways, figuring I would be okay.

WRONG.

Close to the end of my work out, I felt like throwing up so bad and my stomach hurt so much I couldn’t even concentrate anymore. I had to stop for a bit so I wouldn’t throw up all over the floor. I just finished working out and my stomach is still hurting really bad.

Shitty work out, ughh.

My five mile bike ride turned into a 6.3 mile bike ride. The weather went from dreary to beautiful and I didn’t want to stop.

so,

“I got you nutella too”

MOM!!! ARE YOU TRYING TO RUIN ME? hahaha oy vey- everything in moderation!

I was looking for bathing suits, but apparently they don’t sell them.  I grabbed a few dresses...

Never realized how fucking ugly I am until now…

Finished day 2 week 3 of c25k. I was sweating buckets..literally. Bad thing was that I have misplaced my gym key, so my mom had to sneak me in tonight! Eeek@ I also went for a country bike ride with my best friend :). It was so fucking cold out today…brrrr! I’m hoping to hit my big deal goal in 2 pounds and my 30 pound mini goal in 7 pounds! Finishing off my night with some delicious fruit (apple, banana, pear)!

i am completely off track.

blueberry muffin for breakfast.

chipotle for lunch.

410 + 650 = 1,060 alone wtf?

skipped dinner, had about 10 french fries instead.

what the hell is wrong with me?

first day without new followers, probably deserved that.

no exercise.

not even gonna deal with this

probably just gonna fast now yaaay it was so good last time.

somehow, on these days that are so bad, are the days that i actually have a social life and friends - but i leave the house after looking in the mirror and feeling awful. it’s not worth it. i’d rather feel beautiful and lose the weight first, then go and be happy. 

i don’t need to be happy to do this right. 

If you have any requests for healthy recipes let me know! My family has started trying (and loving) the healthy food I'm making so I go through it faster and can try more new things! :D I only make vegetarian/ fish for myself but I'm more than happy to create a meat recipe for you to try! :)

I was sitting in a huge empty parking lot, on the top of my car with my summer fling.  We got on the conversation of girl’s pants and how tight they are. 

Me-It’s so hard to find pants because look at the ones I’m wearing now (motioning at my black skinny jeans), they fit me perfectly on the legs but look how big they are in the upper thigh/hips (pulling to expose the tons of extra fabric).

Him-haha maybe you should just gain some weight to fit into them

Me-ummm no, I would prefer to not be fat

Him-Yeah but too skinny isn’t okay either. The anorexic type of skinny where the girl looks like she could honestly pass out in 2 seconds or you could break her by touching her.

Me- yet you see millions of girls all over the world starving themselves to look like that (thinking of myself)

Him-yeah but the thing is, no boy likes girls that thin. I’ve never met a guy ever that said his type was the type that was stick thin, never.

he is missing the point, we starve ourselves for ourselves primarily, and secondarily others. I don’t starve myself because I only want boys, but I starve myself out of fear of becoming fat and it’s the only thing I can control anymore (what goes in my mouth).

he also just made me realize that i’m not skinny enough yet because he didn’t categorize me with the “too skinny” girls.

xoxo sarah

So today was okay, I guess. I lost another pound - I’m at 129 exactly! But I ate so fucking much today and girlfriend wants me to start eating 1,200 calories a day and guess what’s not going to happen? That. 

Calorie Count

Total intake: 1,116 (jesus fucking christ)

Total outtake: 222 (so far, I need to burn 194 more)

Total net intake: 894

So damn, I’m just going to have to do better this weekend and maybe I’ll be able to convince her that I’m okay. I don’t know. I’ll just work out and get my net intake down to 700 and maybe tomorrow I can eat under 700. I really hope so. I need to be skinny.

i think my body is oddly shaped … i didn’t really realize it until today thought that i have a pretty small torso, but loooong legs. yeah, that bugs me … but whatever haha

and i just realized that with how much i’ve been running, i haven’t gotten shin splints! which actually makes me really happy because when i run (well jog) i go for 5 miles at the time!

and, p90x seems kind of interesting. but i don’t think i’m going to buy it. but it seems pretty cool.

okay, this was really random! ;)

almost had to blackmail myself to get on the scale today but SO SO glad i did!!

Don’t you hate it when scales don’t properly function? I stepped on the scale first time and I weighed in at 64.4kg. Then I decided to step on again and I weighed in at 66.8kg… What the hell? Is that even possible?! Which one should I take? 64.4kg of course HAHAHAHA. - Amanda

Lost a pound! That’s 4 in total.

I was hoping for more, but the weekend was a bit bad, wasn’t it? And I’m sure my McDonalds for lunch and my Chinese for dinner didn’t help either!!! I’ve had a bad day today…

Why was it so bad? Well, every Thursday I like a treat after class. Some people have a cream cake, I like junk food. I then had a job interview (and I am now consequently employed woohoo!), and I was out with the twins all afternoon. We didn’t get back in till late, we were all starving (including the girls) so we ordered something in.

What am I going to do about it? Superspeed foods. Hundreds of them! I am going to go out to the shops and grab as much strawberries and baked beans as possible! I am also going to plan my meals better this week. I have noticed that I often forget to have both an A and a B choice so I will fix that in my food plan too! I have a target of 2 pounds next week and I want to smash it! No ferrero roche this week! No picking at the toffees!

I also feel that my lack of exercise is an issue. I know I’ve got a cracked vertebrae but I feel it will really speed up my weight loss if I get off my fat backside! I am usually running around after the twins but it is obviously not enough. I have (or should I say: Morag has) a wii fit that has never been used. Perhaps it’s time it came out the box…

Aims for Tomorrow:

How to lose FAT and not MUSCLE (super important info)

feels good!!!!!

I’m going out tomorrow night, in exactly 24 hours, and I feel SO bloated right now. Like, I feel so so so fat and unhealthy, it’s not even comprehensible. But I wanted to wear this fitted top when I go out to party tomorrow night, do y’all think that my bloat/fatness that resulted from the binge will be gone by then?

This is probably stupid, but I feel so down because of it. Where has my self-control gone off to?

welcome to my health blog. This is kind of an online diary for me. I will post about food, recipes, health, exercise, tips, my experience and lifestyle. I exercise about 5 times a week. I would like to exercise ideally every day. I eat healthily but I also allow treats, generally good treats, but still very yummy treats. Don’t get me wrong, I’ll have the odd blow out, but I am terrible with guilty feelings afterwards so I prefer to be healthy about my treats rather than naughty and suffer with guilt! So I have begun this blog to help me get to stage where I am completely satisfied with my lifestyle and health. I sometimes struggle with acceptance, therefore I have to be at a zen with myself in order to accept myself. This I truly believes is achieved through my diet and exercise regime. But this is a personal thing I know. I do not have any sort of eating disorder, nor do I agree with all this pro-ana, pro-mia thing. I am happy to listen to anyone with a problem, I too hope my followers will be around to help me :) But I am healthy!!! So please, respect that! Anyway, I think this is a good enough introduction. Follow, if you please. x

Extra Easy Day:

• Brekkie: 28g porridge oats (HEX B), skimmed milk (part of HEX A) 1 tbsp golden syrup (2), strawberries
• Lunch: Jamaican chicken casserole
• Dindins: wholemeal pasta, red & yellow pepper, red onion, tomato, chicken, herbs, garlic, egg, mozarella (rest of HEX A)
• Snacks: 100 cal M&S mini popcorn cakes (4.5), mini milk (1.5), strawberries, cherries, fat free vanilla yoghurt
• Drinks: water, chai tea, redbush vanilla tea, options belgian hot chocolate (2)
• Syns: 10 = Great day :)

Stressful day. Revision in morning. Modern French Thinkers exam in afternoon. First question was excellent…second was not bad…third was atrocious…hopefully this balances out. :/ Then I was starving and had dinner, cleaned the bathroom and kitchen so they’re habitable again and my room. Now chiiiilled. Debating whether to do some exercise before bed. Was gonna start off the shred again but my ankle is sore and twinging for some reason… (it does this every so often :( )

So tired. Gonna at least read through my Baked and Delicious magazines and plan out the rest of the week and my reply to my german schools. The internet’s been SO super frustratingly slow that I haven’t got round to it yet. :( Been trying to have a ‘quick’ look at Tumblr for the past 5 hours but everything keeps freezing. Booo.

‘Cupcake’ x

I was always very slim, up until my twenties, but even back then I thought I was “big.” When I met my husband, I was 16 and weighed around 105 - 110 pounds. It’s so strange how I was self conscious back then but now I would be in heaven if I weighed that. 

My weight started to creep up after my junior year when I quit my dance/flag line group. I got a lot of exercise with it and since I didn’t march my senior year, I got no physical activity. I’d always been more interested in books and art than anything and I devoted myself to that for a long time. When I got married and moved in with my husband, it got worse because we cooked big meals every night. But the real problem began when I was working three jobs and lived on fast food. One of my jobs was in a bakery, which didn’t help either. Let me tell you, I don’t care how much willpower you have. Christmas time in a bakery kills. Fresh cookies and cinnamon rolls straight out of the oven… that “just one” will add up if you do it every single day.

Anyway, I told myself that I had it under control and that I was ok as long as I didn’t gain anymore. I was fine at 130. But then 130 became 150. And 150 became 175. And then I looked at my closet one day and decided my clothes were looking kind of ratty and I needed to buy some new ones. My financial situation as well as my lack of free time had stopped me shopping a long time ago. So I went out to get a few things.

It was a shock to realize exactly how many sizes I had gone up. I had to keep going back to the racks and getting the bigger size until finally I realized that I would need to go to the plus size department. So I went home and cried instead.

I still haven’t bought new clothes and that was about four years ago. I rely on t-shirts, hoodies, and jeans on the rare occasions I do leave my house. I don’t like going out with friends, or even to family functions. Worse, I very seldom do any of the things that used to make me happy. I’ve turned myself into a social outcast and I’m pretty sure I have mild depression. 

I’ve tried almost every diet you can think of. I’ve done low carb, high protein, high fat, low fat, no fat, gluten free, dairy free, veganism, juicing, raw food, cleansing and anything else you can think of. At one point I was on this thing where I was cutting out anything that could possibly be an allergin and then adding it back in slowly, just to see if I had any reactions. I forget the name of the diet, but it was a book written by some kind of doctor who promised miracle results. And I got them. I lost about 30 pounds. But man, was I sick and tired of the food. 

The thing is, I know that the only thing that will work for me is a diet that’s convenient and full of variety. So I’m opting for calorie counting this time around. I’m going to allow myself to eat whatever I want but to keep my overall calories within a budget of around 1200 -1600 a day, depending on if I exercise or not. Eventually I hope to move into other phases, like cutting out processed food and drinking only water. But too much too fast is what’s ruined me in the past so I’m going slow. I hope to use this tumblr as a daily food diary to track what I eat, and also to list any goals or triumphs or thoughts I have along the way. Basically I’m hoping this will keep me accountable and I’ll stick to it this time. 

Wish me luck!

Breakfast:

• 3/4 cup of Kashi Toasted Berry Crisp cereal - 210 calories
• 3/4 cup of skim milk - 70 calories
• 1 small banana - 90 calories
• Coffee with skim milk - 20 calories
  

Snack:

• Coffee with 2 creams and 1 sugar (it was given to me by one of the people I work with and I didn’t want to be rude and just throw it out..) - 40 calories

Lunch:

• 1/2 salami sandwich with mustard and spinach - 275 calories
• Baby carrots - 30 calories
• Red grapes - 60 calories

Snack:

• Fiber One bar - 140 calories
• Red apple - 95 calories

Dinner:

• Greek salad with vinaigrette - 160 calories
• 1/3 chicken breast - 95 calories

Total: 1285 calories

not exactly hungry, i just feel like eating. it’s a difficult habit to break. 

i’ll go for another walk instead. 

The change I was doing with P90 and eating more calories obviously didn’t work at all. I was trying to get up to losing 8lbs a month, instead of 5lbs (what I normally lose) but I’ve only lost 1lb in the last month and a half so blah. That’s the problem with losing once a month instead of once a week. I have to try a diet for a whole month just to see if it works. Gr.

Anyway, I’m going back to what I usually do! Which is every other day switching between doing the 30 Day Shred, and the treadmill (or the stationary bike I just got! $40!). And hooping everyday. Along with eating 1,200 calories.

Though I might still screw around with eating more some days, I don’t know. Every BMR calculator gives me a different calorie consumption! I’ve gotten anywhere from 1,600 to 2,800. It’s ridiculous. If anybody has any ideas, I’m all ears.

This was all rambly I’m sorry, haha.

“Losing weight” is insufficient terminology. It’s too vague, too unspecific. When a person sets out to lose weight, just what are they trying to lose? Bone density? Muscle mass? Organ weight? Of course not – they’re generally looking to lose adipose tissue. People want to burn body fat, and they want to do it without negatively impacting the more beneficial sources of (corporeal)gravitas. Simply put, you want to lose fat, not muscle. The only problem is that the popular methods for shedding weight often result in excessive (but really, any amount is excessive) muscle loss, too. I’m talking, of course, about precisely the practices I rail against in the Primal Blueprint – Chronic Cardio, ultra low-cal/low-fat ascetic dieting, and other trappings of Conventional Fitness Wisdom. Granted, adhering to any, individually or in concert, will probably help you lose weight, but a ton of it will come from yourlean mass (not to mention bones and organs). That said, if you’re going for skinny-fat chic or the waiflike, undernourished look, feel free to run fifteen miles a day and live off canned tuna and rice cakes. The scale will drop, and you won’t be weighed down by that pesky musculature any longer.

 

But you don’t want that (do you?). You want a strong, lean body. You want to maintain your agility, your power, your strength, and your agreeable appearance. You want to burn fat while maintaining (or even building upon) your existing muscle. Heck, if you’re mostly interested in burning fat, you need the muscle. Muscle is a hungry, wasteful thing. It craves protein and fatto run effectively, along with a bit of glycogen every now and then to fuel up. Next to the organs and the brain, your muscle mass is one of the biggest consumers of energy in the body, and the more you have, the better your fat loss. It’s a delicious cycle – the right kind of exercise spares muscle and burns fat, and more muscle with reduced body fat allows you to do the right kind of exercise.

To make sure you’re losing the right kind of weight, you have to chart your progress. It’s a little more complicated than just watching your total weight, though. In fact, you don’t even really need the scale anymore. Well, you can keep it around, but don’t get too comfortable; your meetings will be fleeting and infrequent from here on out. Spend a little quality time alone, if you must. Get your fill of each other, because you’re going to be using an entirely different set of barometers to monitor your weight loss: eyes, ears, belts, and weights.

Eyes

Check yourself out. Don’t hover in front of the mirror, though. Strip down to the bare essentials and take full body snapshots, making sure to space them out every few days. A lot of people tend to obsess over minor daily fluctuations, but you’re not going to see a whole lot of visual differences that quickly. Five days, six days, or definitely a week, however, can be enough time to notice a difference in a direct comparison. Look out for misshapen lumps, sagging chests, flabby underarms – all signs that you’re losing muscle and maintaining fat.

Ears

If you’re doing it right, you should be getting noticed. Whether it’s a significant other, a co-worker, or friends, people will compliment you. Heed their words. When people say, “You’ve lost weight!” (and they’re not your grandmother clicking her tongue in disapproval) and, “You look stronger and healthier!” it means you’re on the right track. Take it as a sign.

Belts

Losing fat and maintaining muscle means dropping pants sizes. Using an extra notch on the belt is good. Having to buy an entirely new belt is better. Using a hole punch to create new holes because you can’t afford a new belt is pretty bad – but at least you’re still losing fat.

Weights

The best way to ensure you’re maintaining muscle mass is to chart your progress in the weight room. Muscle loss is accompanied by a reduction in strength, so if you find yourself failing to hit the marks you used to destroy with ease, you’re probably eating muscle. It’s a bad sign if you’re dropping weight and doing fewer pull-ups than before.

(You can also use body fat testing to get actual numbers, but I’m a big fan of the above methods. How you feel, look, and lift is going to be enough of a marker for most people.)

Okay, those are a few ways to monitor your progress (or lack thereof), but what about actually doing it? What should we be eating, and how should we be exercising? Short answer: follow the PB way. Eating a high-fat, moderate protein, low-carb diet is pretty crucial in our everyday life, and it’s no different now. Minimizing our insulin load while filling up on fats, meat, and veggies is just as important. Likewise, lifting heavy things and running really fast every once in awhile are keys to promoting fat mobilization and muscle maintenance. You could even just check out the last post I did on building muscle and for the most part all that stuff will apply, too.

But there are a few specifics that bear repeating, and a few areas where today’s advice differs slightly from that of the previous muscle-building post.

Intermittent Fasting

IF is perhaps your greatest tool when losing weight and maintaining muscle. It increases insulin sensitivity (good for mobilizing adipose tissue), promotes the secretion of growth hormone (a muscle sparing, fat burning hormone), and reduces body fat. What’s not to love? It’s almost like the human body’s response to IF was designed specifically for our current predicament. Hmm, I wonder if Grok ever found himself in a situation where food was scarce and muscle mass was precious… For extra benefits, exercise in a fasted state and wait at least an hour before you eat something.

Avoid Excess Chronic Cardio

I know, I know, those words probably still sound like sacrilege to a few of you, but it’s true that constant, Chronic Cardio is catabolic – it retards muscle growth, interrupts protein synthesis, and can even reduce existing muscle mass. Too much exercise (especially highly stressful long distance steady state stuff) releases cortisol, a vitally important “flight-or-flight” hormone that can be incredibly damaging in unnaturally large amounts. In Grok’s day, cortisol would have kicked in when he needed it to jog his senses and get him focused on surviving a momentary threat; nowadays, we’re pelted with stress from all angles, and our body doesn’t differentiate between artificial stress (like work, traffic, or money) and “real” threats. Chronic Cardio is just another unnaturally stressful situation we subject ourselves to, and cortisol is happy to help – except all that help packs on the pounds and eats away at our muscles.

Make Sure You Sprint

Besides, sprinting (or really, any exercise that stimulates lactate production) is a great way to increase growth hormone production and burn body fat while maintaining fast twitch musculature. GH, fasting, sprinting, fat mobilization… it all seems to fit together, huh?

Lift Heavy Things

You fail to move it, you’ll lose it. You can’t forget about lifting, whether it’s with a heavy barbell or your own weight. Resistance training increases bone density, which is an important factor in healthy body weight, and it (obviously) also increases (or maintains, depending on your diet/intensity) muscle mass. Oh, and I probably don’t even have to say it, but heavy lifting (especially compound exercises like squats and deadlifts) also stimulates growth hormone production.

Don’t Go Overboard on the Food

You’re not trying to pack on weight – even if it’s muscle – so there’s no need to stuff yourself. When you’re not fasting, just eat normally. Eat your fill, and stop when you want. Just keep those carbohydrates low, no more than 50g or so for most people, and don’t obsess over calorie counting (in either direction). Focus on saturated and monounsaturated fats (with some fish oil to supplement) and take in about a gram of protein for every pound of lean body mass.

Again, you’d be pretty safe just following the normal Primal eating and exercise plans, getting plenty of rest, minimizing stress, and fasting once in awhile, but I figured a quick and dirty guide with a few clarifications would help ensure you achieve fat loss without sacrificing muscle mass. It’s just too bad that most of the mainstream assumes muscle loss accompanies weight loss – if they even consider it. Let’s hope a few outsiders stumble upon this and realize weight loss doesn’t have to be a compromise.

Source: http://www.marksdailyapple.com

Day 1: Starting Weight/Measurements

See ya later level 1 of the 30 day shred; it’s been nice knowing ya. I want to measure again just because the level is over but realistically it’s been 3 days and I’m not doing that shit. Today was the first day I actually did it with real weights because I finally had time to go and get some last night………haha the books I was using were probably only 1.5 pounds (I say this after working out today). I bought 3 pound weights because I knew 5 would be too much right now. I can definitely feel it in my arms ahah. I had no idea the books were so light. At least I can say Harry Potter helped me get thin ;)

One thing I will say is that I wish there was a timer or something on the video just so you knew there was only 10 seconds left of something. I listen to music and turn down the volume of the instructions usually but I keep it loud enough so I can still hear it. Every once in awhile I here Jillian say “just a few more” and it is much more than a few. ahah it’s just deceiving and I like to know what’s going on justttt sayin.

Anyway food has been good today. I have some tofu marinating right now. I think I’ll back some and have it with stir fry and tomorrow I’ll use the rest for veggie tacos.

Ps. I don’t know about you guys but I like sour cream soo instead of using that on my tacos I usually use a lil low fat ranch. TAS-ty.  hahah that’s my suggestion for the day.

Now I’m going to do an inner thigh workout followed by homework forever. sigh.

UK8/US4 to a UK4/US0

Zero calorie chewing gum = A binging life saver!

Breakfast this morning. Half a bagel with low calorie light cream cheese and one scrambled egg White

I was at 13 years old about 265 pounds. I currently weigh: 175 

Shit son, sometimes I even forget how much that is.

Another one of my favorite diet foods. I am eating these instead of any other noodles. Only 18 calories for an entire package of them. I am looking for some good sauce recipes (low calorie ones). Let me know if you have one :) 

breakfast: 10g apple (4.5 calories) 10g kiwi (3.7 calories) tsp yogurt (5 calories) 5 oats (1 calories)

lunch: broccoli (10 calories) pepper (10 calories) 1 tomato (20 calories)

supper: chedder thing (20) slice of apple (3)

total for today: 4.5+3.7+5+1+10+10+20+20+3= 77.2

walked for like 10 minutes, 100 sit ups done.

MUST RUN TOMORROOOWWWWWWW

Swim lesson time! I love giving lessons because the kids are great and I burn over 700 calories! After I'm making a fantastic grilled Mediterranean couscous dish, 200 calories 3.5 fat, 10 protein! :D

I eat when I have to and when I’m hungry, which is a rare occasion as of late.

I’m about 80% sure we’re going out to eat on Sunday for father’s day so that will be my first big meal in about a week (don pablos from monday)

I’m not having a big meal until then.

As of May 30:

195 pounds

Right Arm: 14 1/2 inches

Bust: 43 inches

Chest: 35 3/4 inches

Waist: 35 inches

Hips: 44 inches

Right Thigh: 27 1/4 inches

Right Calf: 16 1/4 inches

sooo sweaty.

Lunch time!!!! Yummy :)

Any suggestions?

Starting: 252

Last Week: 248.5

This Week: 247.5

I’ll take it! It’s been an icky week.

For my peanut butter and jelly sandwich I have been using Buddy Fruits strawberry apple for my jelly! It tastes really good, it is not too thick, and the entire pouch is just 60 calories!!!! Of course I do not use the whole thing for one sandwich so really it is roughly 15 calories per sandwich!!! Think about it… 1-2 tbsp. Regular jelly is 50 calories and this whole entire pouch is just 60!!

every. single. day.

I’ve calculated all of my calories for the day, and I can easily have pancakes, a piece of non-buttered toast, a Morningstar maple sausage patty, and 2 Morningstar Bacon strips. I love breakfast for dinner!! (Morningstar is an all-vegetarian brand, btw).

And wanna hear the best part? I also have room for an oreo. That’s right- I’m gonna put oreo bits in my pancakes.

I’m so excited for dinner that I’m counting down the hours I have left: 3.5

2 slices of Pepperidge Farms Light Style soft wheat bread is just 90 calories!!!

sooo sweaty.

walked dogs at the animal shelter for an hour this morning.
then did insanity interval training.

me so tired!

time to find some food to eat

girls night tonight! may contain pizza and ice cream

i think some people are only meant to be in your life to help you lose weight by creating stressful situations. and i will stick

But I’ve had exams up until today!! It’s quite literally consumed me.

And it’s done weird things to my eating, like being too stressed to eat most of the time. And when I am hungry? Its all cravings haha

We’ll see the effects on the scales tomorrow.

team flippyfloppies. more like team WINNERS.

yeah, that’s right.

this girl right here.

As of today, I weighed in at 169.2 lbs.

I started losing weight last spring/summer when I weighed 210 lbs. This puts me at almost FOURTY ONE POUNDS lost, and about 5 lost for this summer.

Hahahaha I love it.  About to eat, run, then go to work.  I love my life. 

I have finally considered myself on track enough to know that I won’t fall behind.  This means I’ve accepted that I will not get back up above 230lbs. I’ve reached my first goal weight.  Now on to my second.  Only 7 pounds. :)

You’re not hungry; you’re bored. It’s not time to eat. Wait until noon, and then we can have green beans and carrots. You always like that. By next wednesday, you’ll weigh around 156 lbs. Who knows, if we eat healthy and don’t go overboard, maybe 155 lbs. So, be quiet. It’s all okay. I’ll take care of you. 

Breakfast:

Watermelon

Lunch:

Peanut butter sandwich, Dr. Pepper

Dinner:

Salad

Work out:

30 jumping jacks

10 crunches

Walk (not sure how far yet)

Dance

I finally hit 110. Went in to see my doctor for a regular check-up. She saw that I came down from 140. Said my BMI was underweight (really?!). I’m wasn’t planning on losing anymore, but she said that if I did, I had to come back and see her.

I still have a considerable amount of arm flab. Hip bones are not apparent. I’m not so dense that I think I’m not thin, but there are definitely healthy, thinner girls out there who aren’t getting fingers wagged at them by their doctors.

Guess it’s time to focus on muscle tone.

picture irrelevant. 

Tomorrow is a very very exciting day!

And now I’m off to work at my grandma’s house from 11 to 4.

Apparently she wants me to drive her to Stop & Shop so she can get groceries, which means she’ll want to go through the Wendy’s drive-thru for lunch. I need to figure out if I can afford to get the chicken nuggets there or if I should stick strictly to the Lean Cuisine I’ve been eating the past few weeks.

When I was younger, I used to never care about my weight. Now, it’s everything to me.

What food is your weakness?

Anything drizzled or covered in chocolate.

Wasn’t TUMBLR friendly. lol

Lunch was a chicken & mushroom pasta n sauce made up with water (free) mixed with a full tin of mushrooms (superfree) & a pint of squash (free.

Kitkat as usual is 5.5syns.

Gonna get home & do my biggest loser workout! Hopefully will be greeting Bob & Jillian like old friends. I won’t want anything too heavy after that so I’m going to oven cook 2 of my garlic & chilli sausages (syn free from Joe’s Sausages our consultant makes a group order every week) and chop them up into a 2 egg omelette (free).

Sorted!

BY THE WAY, some creeper who apparently lives across from the gym congratulated me on how often I’ve been going there :D

Apparently he can see me exercising everyday from his window that faces the gym o.O

Scale came in yesterday and I weighed myself this morning: 146 lbs. That means I’ve lost 6 lbs since my starting weight of 152 lbs. 

I’m not going to lie I’m feeling a little bit disappointed… During the school year I usually weight 147 lbs. I gained 5 lbs when I went home this semester between my brother’s graduation celebrations, my going away celebrations, etc, etc. I feel like I’m just back to the weight I usually am. There was even a point this spring where I was down to 143 lbs. I feel like I won’t be breaking even until I’m back down to 143. There’s no reason I should have put that 10 lbs back on. I never want to put that weight back on again.

Either way… before I got on the scale I was feeling awesome about my figure. I’ve been going to the gym a lot. I haven’t lost 20 lbs over night and I need to understand that is healthy. I want to loss the weight healthy with an exercise program I can keep up with when I go back to school. An hour of gym a day isn’t unreasonable to keep up with during the semester.

I weighed myself before I went to the gym today and after some working out I feel better :D I’m going to keep this up!

Maybe I haven’t lost so much because all the fat has been turning into heavier muscle at the gym :P

even though i only had it for a week and a half, i guess it was a pretty easy habit to get into. :P

i ordered some new ones last night. three different cheap ones. not sure which kind works best for me, and they were seriously around $2 a piece+shipping so it’s not like i have much to lose if any of them break. haha. if all three of them break…well then…i’ll have to think about getting a fancy expensive one i guess. :P

anyway, i think all of them are coming in from out of the country so it’s going to be a while until i get them. ah well, at least we’re getting the treadmill this weekend. 

Until then, think I’m just going to do lots of walking. 

The reason that got me into weight loss this time around was honestly… my boyfriend. I think that’s a great reason beside being healthy. I want to enjoy being healthy with someone I love.

I want to enjoy his company in more ways than just sitting around watching movies but being fit enough to go hiking and enjoy the beautiful world with him and others.

In light of that…

Goal setting:

By the end of the summer I want to…

1. Overhead Press: 50 lbs. This is important to me because I’m so short I need to be able to lift things that are over my head :P Seriously…
2. Chest Press: 100 lbs. I’m already at 62.5!
3. Row: 100 lbs. It seems to keep up with the chest press.
4. Leg Press: 200 lbs.

I don’t think these goals are crazy. I’ll work at them everyday :)

Are you vegan or vegetarian? If so, has this helped you lose weight? If not, would you ever consider turning vegan or vegetarian?

I went vegetarian for like a month and I did lose a lot of weight, but I got sick because I wasn’t doing the whole vegetarian thing right. I eat meat now, but I eat it a lot less frequently. I wouldn’t go veggie again just because I work out so much and I need meat as a source of protein, but I do choose fish or poultry a lot now.

My boyfriend is coming over to see me! We’ve been apart for 5 weeks so it will be so good to be back together, he is only staying Friday - Monday so we don’t have long, but it will be so nice, I keep thinking about it and getting butterflies! SO EXCITED!!! I’m going to pick him up from the airport at 11am!

I need to start planning things to do with him, on Saturday we are going to watch my Dad do a triathlon, the sea swimming element of it is around a big rock with a 1000+ year old castle perched on top of it so that will be all pretty and nice. I want to go for a cycle together as well (exercise AND couple time, excellent!) and just chill and do nice things together.

After he goes on Monday though we won’t see each other for another 5 or 6 weeks :-(

OH and that was what I came on here to ask you all, we are going out for a meal together tomorrow night to my local Indian restaurant, I don’t really know what the best thing to have weight-loss-wise would be, obviously I want to stay away from things like fried rice, naan, and creamy curries like korma and tikka masala, so what would you suggest? I was thinking I’d get tandoori chicken or chicken shashlik and then steal literally 2 spoon fulls of my boyfriend’s boiled rice (the portions are HUGE). What do you think? Does that sound sensible? What do you normally order at an Indian if you’re watching your weight?

Oh man.. I need to not leave my house! unless i go to the gym

Ended up going to the movies last night and picked dinner up on the way.. I tried to eat healthy, but still a lot of calories! :( BLAH

Week 1 down.

Okay so it’s officially been one week since I started this diet. I have to admit, it has been really hard even though I’ve only been doing it for only one week. I think the most important factor that has helped me keep going is inspiration. I have a friend who is also trying to lose weight as well, though she doesn’t weigh as much as I do haha. We work out over the phone (it sounds funny but it works, trust me). I do have to admit though towards the end of the week, I sort of crashed on the “healthy eating”. I would blame my family for taking me out to eat buuuuuuuuuuuut it is my fault, because I could have chosen to eat a salad or soup instead of a bacon cheeseburger (sigh….). But oh well. I worked out like crazy the day after and I think it paid off because I LOST WEIGHT!.

Ha. I don’t mean to get so excieted  but just seeing that slight difference in the scale really made my week and made me think what I’m doing is worth it. SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! Ready to know the final number as of today??????

As of today I weigh.

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177

:)

It’s not that big of a difference but it still makes me happy. I’m going to keep going

 Oh and here are this weeks pics

front

side

 I really saw a slight difference here from the side. kinda happy about that :)

back

 look! my nasty fat rolls got less nasty and fat! yay!

You can’t really tell but my arms are a little tighter too. I did ALOT of upper body work this week. I need to do some more running and lower body stuff.

Anyways this is my progress so far, not much but it is something. What I want to do is make like a slideshow of my progress so you guys can watch me shrink. 

This week I plan to work out more and control my mouth more. I know I can do this. If I can, anyone can!

So, see you guys soon or whenever I get the chance to post :P

I refuse to be fat and I’m out.

Three months >FIFTY pounds lighter

I cropped this out of a photo taken back in Jan,2011 just so when I show you the picture that I...

Ah!

So hungry right now… this is later than I’d usually stay up. And I’m really hungry.. but I’m going to resist the urge to eat and just wait until breakfast tomorrow. For some reason I felt unusually confident today. I dread weighing myself, and despite that I did on Monday. Since then I’ve lost two pounds. I’m proud of myself. I’m somewhat ashamed of my starting weight… but I plan to get it down to a comfortable 135 :)

Okay, so it's 2:45 a.m. here.

But, since I’ve destroyed my normal sleeping pattern (which I’m working on getting normal again :D), I’m wide awake.  Since I sat for basically 2 hours watching a movie, I decided to stretch.  There are many good ways to throw in a little extra exercise to your busy life.  All these stretches are a song long!

• Listen to a catchy song.  Jog in place during the verses, and touch your toes (and hold it) during the chorus.  This should limber you up really well.
• Listen to fast paced song.  Do crunches during the verses, and using a weight, do some bicep curls during the chorus.
• Listen to a slow, calm song.  Hold each stretch for 15 seconds.  Do an ab stretch, toe touch, left arm stretch, right arm stretch, lower back stretch, upper back stretch, hip stretch.  Repeat this until the song ends.

Easy enough, right?  Every little thing helps.  So do every little thing you can!  Remember, drink plenty of water, get enough sleep, and eat a ton of greens.  Making little steps will lead you to a better, healthier life.

Week Four Day Five

Today was one of the most frustrating days ever! Just no one cooperating and getting ready and leaving. But against all odds I made it to Sea World! So that was good because I was walking around all day! (or half the day rather). I’m not really sure how much of a work out that really is, but it feels like it, and I imagine that walking (Even if its not continuously) for that long has to be some type of exercise… Anyway here’s today:

B-Omelet with ham no cheese with OJ

L-the rest of my Mongolian food

D-some mini quarter sandwhiches which added up to about 1 ham/turkey and 1/2 peanut butter, with a spoon full of rice

S-popcorn and soda =[

E-just the walking we did around the park…. hopefully something